Fly's

Unlock my heart

2012-02-16T15:20:00.000-08:00

Dream to be free...

dear god,

Thanks for everything until now..

and also for the future..

you make me learn , learn & learn everyday..

the bad things happen..

and i do feel very scared...

but u give me something that i'm very appreciate having it...

I lied, and make up a story..

that's what negative about me..

but u give me way to overcome it..

and i'm so happy,

for everything u had done to me..

THANKS>.<

shit happen just to remind us, that we r not safe...

2012-02-14T22:25:00.001-08:00

Friday ~ Today & yesterday story..

2012-01-26T22:35:00.000-08:00

Keep in mind that things happen for a reason..
and world is not fair as we imagined...
"we live alone, we die alone, everything else is just an illusion"
quoted by George Zinavoy - The Art Of Getting By..
It's not fair god, u know what i mean..
I don't want to be a bad person, but i am a very2 bad person now...
i've said things i don't want & don't mean too...
I hate the person i am now..
;(

The cuteness of Life

2012-01-17T07:30:00.000-08:00

Ohayooooo,

i'm back for more..

yeah!!!!...

been so silent these few months..

the pics above r the pics of my two lovely niece..

very cute right..

yay...!!! i wish to have baby cute like them..

(XD, just kidding)

before the new year begin,

i had done a lists of "must thing to DO on 2012"

and yeahhh!!,

i complete the first wish..

having new short hair and once again a bangs..

(ineverlearnfrmamistake)

yes i am..

doing the same style but a bit different this time..

at first, i reallly hate it..coz i look so so weird..

but as it get lonnggggerrr..

i happen to like it..

better than not having any hair..LOL xd..

Tadaaaaa,

sound stupid, talking to myself..

haha..

@$#%$%^$^%$%#%$%^&U&^**&*(*(*)(

this is what i feel at office today..

work is hard,

and everyday i can't stop myself from complaining...

aiya

jashikkkkk...

cham..

stop until here for now..

sleep time..ZZZZ...

2011-12-14T06:36:00.000-08:00

heyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Talking to myself again...
sound so lonely ;(
finally, my job is done...
can relax a bit already tomolooooo.....
feeel so tired this days...
i still don't know abt many things..
and i kept learning day by day..
aiya....my money aso...gone..
buy this and that...
hope for a x'mas bonus..coz, i still haven't buy any present 4 my mom & dad..
aiya...why am i so so BOROSSSSSSSSS.....
my x'mas present...
i wish for a bestfriend...
nothing more...jUst that...
i know..x'mas is not about getting present...
it's about the birth of our creator..
and we celebrate it becoz of his kindness to us..
he dies for us...
:(...
So let's celebrate the big day, happily...

God, give me the key now...
i'm afraid to open it before..
but i'm ready now...
so God pls open it now...

p/s: i'm not arrogant, i'm just to shy to look at u eyes to eyes, face to face...
i'm maybe stupid but i'm willing to learn..

i am so not happy tdy ! !

2011-12-06T08:10:00.001-08:00

...............................................
I keep remind to myself to "SMILE"
and for a few seconds, i will..then after that, i get this ugly faces.... ಠ_ಠ

I feel so damn not happy today, i did laugh in a day, but i just feel like i'm missing something..
Homesick ~.~ , i miss my friends so so much, and i want to meet them..
i want to go back home...
;(
Everybody is busy with their own life, work and etc...
try to Pm them, but having just a short chat...
becoz i'm so evil..i feel so lonely..:(
So so tired tdy, work getting harder day by day...
I just missssssssssssssssssssss my friends so so much...
;(
i envy all the pictures i take of myself..
coz i'm smiling prettily in it..
me now, just sigh, sigh, & sigh...
wish me inside aso happy as the pics i take..:)
Dear God...hear my prayer tdy,
coz only talking to u make me calm and be normal again..
pls hear my prayer & and i so selfish, but pls grant my prayer..:)
gd nite..
Dear all my friends...
i do misssss u guys so so much...
:(

a little too much about myself :D NoV moments

2011-12-04T03:53:00.001-08:00

♥ my life ♥

♥ my special dinner ♥

i'm lovin it..

eating it alone in my room..

so sad, kinda miss the sweet escape moment,..

i'm so full ady,

will start dieting again tomorrow..

♥ Sweet escape ♥

wit Luffy, Jenn, Dadek and Wan

27th 11 2012

i'm having the best crazy day tht time..

i enjoy myself too much,

it's been a long time i didn't laugh crazily like tht..

and + my hearts also scared if we get caught ...

but we ended up good anyway..

lols..

Mcd + Hot cup..:)

♥ Greyson Chance Live at 1 Borneo ♥

17th Nov 2011

hihihi...

this is what i like the most.

got the VIP ticket to the concert..

special thanks to Ms.Chua & Jue..

becoz of them

i be able to get the vip ticket..:)

and i enjoy yelling ..

Greyson looks better than Justin..

in my opinion lah..

and he had captured all the girls + boys at his concert..:)

lucky those who get the chance to meet him backstage..

i'm in love with his voice...

and i love the way he's playing the piano..

oh he's just so cute,...

♥ Melvin Farewell party ♥

we having a farewell party for melvin on 30th Nov 2011

he's going to work 4 another company ..

Going to be a big boss at such a young age..

envy him..(kidding XD)

and prumprumprammmmmm...

I'm been given the oppurtunity to take his work..

i start to learn all about his job this whole nov..

and i'm not quite expert enough but i know a lil bit for know..

his job quite hard..

very hard actually..

and it does make me dizzyyy...

aftr work..

ill take bath faster then go to sleep..

but i want to learn more..

and the fact is..

i'm in love with what i'm doing right now..

yeah, i miss a lot of what happen in my hometown but having this job make me more mature..

and the feeling of having yr own salary is superb goooodd..

will work hard from now on..

i won't stop learning...

maybe i've made many mistake at first,

but it's normal..

no one know what to do directly...

all people start to learn 1st..

unless, they r super extraordinary..XD

♥ Melvin and me ♥

♥ my colleagues ♥

up left: Ms.Chua, Fong, me, Aemmy, and Annie

down: Jue, Doreen (ex acc.clerk) , Melvin, Nicholas (our boss) and jihan

2011-11-19T07:38:00.001-08:00

Lately i've been too happy living my life..
and i don't know why??
life seems to be so perfect this few days..
I've been having all things that i exactly want...
The ViP ticket to Greyson chance live in 1b,
just hoping get the standing ticket, but i get more than wht i want..
and
things just going on to what i've planned..
it's simply like that,
Untill i know abt the saddest news ever...
i start crying n crying non stop..
my first pet that i've been taking care of since jan 2011 is now gone..
I feel so guilty inside...
it's maybe happen becoz of my words..
and it is...
Mimi can't give birth,
and the kitten inside is dead..
so
mimi need to get surgery to take out all the dead kitten..
it's must be painful,
she can't bear it..
i've got a phone call today...
from my liltle sister,
she's crying...
and my mom says,
u cannot be like that..
it's just a cat...
and i feel so blank at a moment..
so i just randomly says that, she might be just sleeping..
but my mom says that..she is dead..
my mood is not good,
so i just gone to sleep..
i'm crying so bad tdy..
it's not just a cat..
she's something to me..
i love her so so much..
and i'm so sad now that she's gone..
i can't even watch her ...
I miss Mimi so bad...
i don't know what else i've to say...
because of the happy moment i have the few days..
i forget to care about the other important things in my life..
coz in my thought...
things might be end up in a good way..
and it's not...
she's part of the family now,
my dad who had this cold heart also love her..
tht's why,.....
i love her so so much...
she change all the mood in my house..
my mom was against me at the first time, but she's the one who keep buying food to MIMI>.< (
An' must be so sad rite now, she's the one who taking care of mimi since i start working here
losing something that u care so much is really sad...
so sad ...

19.11.2011

i might crying all night thinking of her...
it's a sad day ever..
:((

Don't wake up alone on saturday morning..

2011-11-12T09:57:00.001-08:00

Your life is changing in small, important ways every day. The structure is no longer holding, no longer able to stay glued together, so certain things are having to leave you when you’re asleep. They’re so quiet, so considerate when they abandon you, that I bet you don’t even notice.

They call this growing up, or something similar to it. You wake up on a Saturday morning and realize everything has become unrecognizable to you. When did this happen? Oh right, when you were sleeping. They came in at night and started to peel things away from you like an orange. They were careful not to cut the center, they were careful not to let any juice drip on the bedspread your mother bought for you. They wanted your life to look familiar to you, didn’t want to shock you completely, so they kept some things intact. Some things, not everything. Guess what’s gone? Wrong. Guess again.

You woke up on a Saturday and came to the sudden realization that you were all alone, that everything you had surrounded yourself with Monday through Friday, all the happy hours and all the business lunches and all those technological noises you drenched your earbuds in: it all added up to zero. You feel like a fool, don’t you? You played the game like everyone asked you to and still managed get to this place of complete and utter loneliness and alienation. Where did you go wrong? Do you need to send another text message to someone? Do you need to pay another credit card off or have another Great Night Out? What can you do to feel more connected to the things around you?

How did this all happen when you were sleeping? How did you manage to sleep through everyone else getting married and having kids and starting meaningful careers? You were asleep and now you’re awake but it’s too late. Everyone else has figured out their life and now you’re just alone on a Saturday morning and that’s it. This is it. Never fall asleep again.

2011-11-12T09:39:00.001-08:00

>,< outing with misha & mala again...

spend just few hours 2gether,

but it's worth...

I'm happy to meet them,

and as usual,

we talk about how we used to be in the past..

I miss the past ...

and now, we living in our different path..

but we still keep in touch..

F.R.I.E.N.D

enjoy the IMMORTALS movie..

worth to watch..

no regrets..

and because of lack of knowledge

it make me want to know more..

so i google abt it..

Zeus.

God of sky, greek mitos..:)

then

aftr tht,

Pizza hut time..

ehm delicious..:)

i wnt to spend misha,

but i forgot my money at home..

so misha end up to add rm 5..sad :(

next,

watch another movie wit mala,

TOWER HEIST..

we're late..

d movie is funny..

that's all for today..

weird, still not sleepy ..

keep downloading songs..

ah..

will be a panda tomoloooo..

aiyo...

HAppY sunday GUYs..

L.i.F.e

2011-11-11T09:58:00.001-08:00

Creating a quiet mind

life

isn't about keeping score.

It's not about ...

how many people call you, and it's not about who you've dated, are dating..

or haven't dated at all..

It's isn't about which guy or girl likes you, what sports you play, who you have kissed.

It's not about your hair and the color of your skin or where you live and where you go to school.

In fact, it's also not about grades, money, clothes or colleges that accept you or not.

Life isn't about if you have a lot of friends, or if you are alone

and it's not about

how accepted and unaccepted you are.

LIFE JUST ISN'T ABOUT THAT.

BUT

LIFE

is about who you love and who you hurt,

it's about how you feel about yourself,

how you think about others.

It's about trust, happiness, and compassion.

IT'S ABOUT...

STICKING UP FOR YOUR FRIENDS
AND REPLACING INNER HATE TO LOVE..

-NA-

this is what i learned on a special day..

Live is short, LIVE IT.

Love is rare, GRAB IT.

Anger is bad, DUMB IT.

Fear is awful, FACE IT.

Memories are sweet, CHERISH IT.

♥ 11.11.11 ♥

2011-11-10T07:49:00.001-08:00

♥ 11.11.11 ♥

How could i be so lucky

I must've done something right..

-rest of my life-

The date was so nice...

Wishing something good happen on that date...

this is the latest of me :)

I smile, and i like it..

will smile like this much more ...

little update with me..

Jobs is ok now,

better :) click..

Life,

same as usual,

learn many things in a day..

and

thnks god 4 keeps accompanying me..

Friend..

not less but not increase too...

but sure i get to know many ppl with different stories of their own..

Family,

miss them soooooo much,

Feel guilty inside, but i'll make sure nxt month will not b the same..

Love,

still in the waiting line..LOLx

geeettttinnng close with my colleagues..

and my day is full of colours nowadays..

last sunday,

go to sacred heart church with Aemmy,

and being there make my heart feel so calm..

i like everything i heard ..

and

God's is so kind, and i love him so much..<3

Gods i had this worries inside of me,

and i can't really say it..

but i know u know abt it..

so help me figure it out God,

help my heart and mind to think wisely..

Help me from getting in the dark side of me..

today..

11.11.11

i'll make it a special day..

not waiting for something good to happen..

but i'll make it happen with my own way..

so guys, enjoy yr day..

be thankful..

God bless u..

Spread the LOVE..

i am stunnnnnnneddd...

2011-11-03T07:40:00.000-07:00

i don't know

what they think and talk about

but

i want to know what they think and talk about so badly..

this

"curiosity"

i have in me, scared me to death...

I have this personality..

i'm the person who care so much of what ppl might think or talk about me..

i just care although,.. i alwys tell myself not to..

And this person i just know,

somehow open my eyes and mind too..

the way she talk, surprised me a little..

"what position u r ,now"

cashier..

thn, why don't help me with the works..

...

i just so shocked of wht i just heard..

and it's make me blur for a moment...

i just know this person for a while....

and she's out of my league..

i'm not a very 100% good girl too..

but

..........

i can't say that i'm better than her,

only god knows the answer..

but....

i don't think she have the right to say that...

i'm doing
my best too..

when i'm busy with the work..

u.....

just playing n talking with others..

and now,

u complained...

oh SH*T

i 'm not angry,

but the scene kept repeating in my mind..

and it make me feel very2 not in a good mood...

i never once complained abt u,

haizzzz...

lord, u make me meet diff. type of person only in this two months

the friends' i just knows

talk abt this and that...

when i was wit them,

they talk about the other side..

and

when i was with the other side..

they do the same..

and

whenever i hear their stories..

i alwys praying that..

i'll stayed as the same me ..

i will just listen and stay quiet..

i don't wish to change,,

but i'm afraid that i change to be one of them , ...

slowly without i notice it myself..

"Don't just judge ppl the way u see them, coz if u do, they'll judge u the same way u judge them."

i don't knw..

why oh why..

i judge ppl..

i know tht me myself..

no good, nor perfect..

but i still

judging ppl...st*pid me..

the true friend is hard to find..

and i'm grateful enough to have at least 7 of them..

but still..

when i have a happy and sad news to share...

none of this any seven ppl i can call ..

i end up calling my sister..

maybe i just had a bad luck in friendship..

dear ****

i am waiting for yr reply..

it's been a week..

wish we can be 2gether like before..

god didn't even fulfilled my first bday wish

so i hope he will let my scnd wish come true...

pls...

the world is coming to an end..

God, please let me have peace in my heart..

let me accept everything ..

i really want to be A good person..

so help me..

and whenever i'm angry..

or pissed with wht othr ppl do..

whisper this to me..

"gene, it's ok..smile and let it go"

maybe i end up ..whisper it to myself on my own..

but i know it's all happen becoz u always next to me..

like always..

God , pls guide me..

walking in my adventure

2011-11-02T04:16:00.001-07:00

Some time having a job feels like curse, but not having a job would probably

feel more worse...

2011-11-01T09:05:00.001-07:00

Lyrics | Mymp lyrics - Say You Love Me lyrics

2011-11-01T06:21:00.000-07:00

~~Tsk...tsk..tsk..~~

~~sad news...~~

~~seriously i'm so so sad..~~

~~but i know i'm not the only one who get hurt .~~

~~maybe~~

~~she's crying now,~~

~~i wish u r okey..~~

~~and let's try again next time..~~

~~God will not let us down,~~

~~maybe he's just testing us now..~~

~~so pls don't be sad..~~

god,

help me to learn faster in everything i'm abt to learn..

help me to control my anger..

and

help me to be me ..

2011-11-01T05:10:00.000-07:00

“Everything is more complicated than you think. You only see a tenth of what is true. There are a million little strings attached to every choice you make; you can destroy your life every time you choose. But maybe you won’t know for twenty years. And you’ll never ever trace it to its source. And you only get one chance to play it out. Just try and figure out your own divorce. And they say there is no fate, but there is: it’s what you create. Even though the world goes on for eons and eons, you are here for a fraction of a fraction of a second. Most of your time is spent being dead or not yet born. But while alive, you wait in vain, wasting years, for a phone call or a letter or a look from someone or something to make it all right. And it never comes or it seems to but doesn’t really. And so you spend your time in vague regret or vaguer hope for something good to come along. Something to make you feel connected, to make you feel whole, to make you feel loved.”

—	Charlie Kaufman

White mind

2011-11-01T05:08:00.001-07:00

“You may think the past has something to tell you. You may think that you should listen, should strain to make out its whispers, should bend over backward, stop down low to hear its voice breathed up from the ground, from the dead places. You may think there’s something in it for you, something to understand or make sense of.

But I know the truth: I know from the nights of coldness. I know the past will drag you backward and down, have you snatching at whispers of wind and the gibberish of trees rubbing together, trying to decipher some code, trying to piece together what was broken. Its hopeless. The past is nothing but a weight. It will build up inside of you like a stone.

Take it from me, if you hear the past speaking to you, feel it tugging at your back and running its fingers up your spine, the best thing to do —the only thing— ~~is run.~~”

—	Lauren Oliver, Delirium

2011-10-28T22:14:00.001-07:00

forgiveness

2011-10-20T09:27:00.000-07:00

i finally ask for it..

and waiting for the response is scary...

I can't sleep well thinking about what will happen next,,.

i should do it early but i don't hv the courage to do so...

And God, please let be fine with whatever the results are...

help me to accept evrything..

:(.....

and let me handle my work better...

i'm happy having this jobs and happy to know my colleagues..

Thank u god, i 'll always says this to u, coz my life is amazing becoz of what u done to me......:)

Thank You !!!

2011-10-18T08:27:00.000-07:00

Thank You

It's the time to be remembered,

a time where 22 years ago,

u give me a chance to live in this amazing world..

U created a story about a girl, tht is me..

U give me a great Family,

My mom, My dad, My big bro, My two sisters & My lil bro whom i care and love the most..

U let me know two important persons in my life..

Celor & Jenn

U give me a cousins who i cherish the most..

U give me a chance to have a best friend that i can rely on..

Debra, Yifei, Bb, Mala & Yatie..

U give me a chance to know other friends that help me to enjoy my life..

Chian, Erny, P'cilla, Bads,Dora,Hael,Linda & Yuki...

My plKn friends..

Dell, Moretz,Elvy, Ili, Alay & Erlin...

Uitm Best Buddy^_^

Misha, Nana, Shafa, Iana, Lysa,Elin,...

and also the boys too..

i enjoyed all the fun and the memory we share together...

and lastyly

thank you for the jobs,

I enjoyed it so much, and it does help me to improve myself to be better than i used to be...

GOD THANK YOU SO MUCH

for everything u have done to me,

I always COMPLAIN about this and that, And sometimes i be a sinner becoz i don't appreciate the things u had given to me..

I don't prayed always, ..and rarely read a bible..

but u still listen to every prayer i tell,

and u answered all the prayer...

THANK YOU..

-for always be by my side when i'm sad, and feel lonely..

-for giving me the courage to face my everyday...

-for helping me cross the road safely,

-for helping me when i have troubled,

and

for loving me ..

please grant my two wish god...

-stop all the negative thinking that i have in me..

n give me courage to make things possible god..

Dear U,

it's my birthday today..

and among all the people i know in this world..

i hope that U, remembered my birthday..

and wish me..

i know many ppl ,

and there's none like u..

i want to be good girl, but

i still not a good girl becoz of what happen btwn us,

it's my faults..

i know that..

and i miss u so so much..

wish we were back to who we used to be...not long ago..

i beg for yr forgiveness..

i know it's too late to apologize...

but i'm sorry..

very2 sorry

sorry for being so in-matured all these years..

-y-

CHAT WITH JESUS CHRIST...

2011-10-12T05:33:00.000-07:00

Jesus: Hello. Did you call me?

Man: Called you? No. Who is this?

Jesus: This is Jesus. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat.

Man: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in the midst of something.

Jesus: What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.

Man: Don’t know. But I can’t find free time. Life has become hectic. It’s rush hour all the time.

Jesus: Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.

Man: I understand. But I still can’t figure out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.

Jesus: Well I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the medium you are comfortable with.

Man: Tell me, why has life become complicated now?

Jesus: Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated.

Man: why are we then constantly unhappy?

Jesus: Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That’s why you are not happy.

Man: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?

Jesus: Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.

Man: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty.

Jesus: Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.

Man: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?

Jesus: Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don’t suffer. With that experience their life become better not bitter.

Man: You mean to say such experience is useful?

Jesus: Yes. In every term, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.

Man: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why can’t we be free from problems?

Jesus: Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons (to) Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.

Man: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don’t know where we are heading.

Jesus: If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.

Man: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in the right direction. What should I do?

Jesus: Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.

Man: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?

Jesus: Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.

Man: What surprises you about people?

Jesus: When they suffer they ask, “why me? When they prosper, they never ask “Why me” Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.

Man: Sometimes I ask, who I am, why am I here. I can’t get the answer.

Jesus: Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.

Man: How can I get the best out of life?

Jesus: Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.

Man: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.

Jesus: There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO.

Man: Thank you for this wonderful chat. I am so happy to start the day with a new sense of inspiration.

Jesus: Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don’t believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve not a problem to resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live.

Man: Thank you so much.

Jesus: You are always welcome. Have a good day my friend.

" Always remember, God's Word is the Word for YOU ".

By: Inspirational story

Something about the truth...

2011-10-11T09:19:00.000-07:00

a girl try to look strong , but she is scared to death...

a girl smile when someone says something that hurt her feelings,

but she's is crying out loud in the inside..

a girl try to be someone she will never be, and she trying very hard everyday ...

a girl who act like she's know everything, but the truth is she just like that so everyone will like her...

a girl who act like she's the happiest girl, but she is lonely ..

She's fake in the outside but , but God loves her anyway...

That's what i know about someone , someone i care the most...

I love her, and i want to let her know that ..

i'm happy to know her..:)

God is with u every second, and have faith in him..

u might not see him, but when u r scared, crying, and feeling lonely, he is next u, holding yr hand...

and thnks for the sharing..appreciate it...:)

luv..F.r.i.e.n.d. forever...

Katy Perry - Not like the movies

2011-10-11T09:17:00.000-07:00

He put it on me, I put it onLike there was nothin' wrongIt didn't fit, it wasn't rightWasn't just the size
They say you know when you knowI don't know
I didn't feelThe fairy tale feeling, noAm I a stupid girlFor even dreaming that I could?
If it's not like the moviesThat's how it should beWhen he's the one, I'll come undoneAnd my world will stop spinning
And that's just the beginning
Snow White said when I was youngOne day, my prince will come so I'll wait for that dateThey say it's hard to meet your matchGotta find my better half so we make perfect shapes
If stars don't align, if it doesn't stop timeIf you can't see the sign, wait for itOne-hundred percent, worth every penny you spendHe'll be the one that finishes your sentences
If it's not like the moviesThat's how it should be, yeahWhen he's the one, I'll come undoneAnd my world will stop spinning
And that's just the beginning
'Cause I know you're out thereAnd you're, you're lookin' for meIt's a crazy idea thatYou were made perfectly for me, you see
Just like the moviesThat's how it will beCinematic and dramaticWith the perfect ending
It's not like the moviesBut that's how it should beWhen he's the one, you'll come undoneAnd your world will stop spinning
And it's just the beginning

It's been a long2 time...

2011-10-06T04:03:00.000-07:00

Holla, how r u..wishing u all have a great2 day...

Mine, having the same routine everyday...

I miss home so so much...

^-^

lil update about me,

i've been working for almost two months now...

its not that tiring but it's boring sometimes...

do the same job everyday..

awwwwww....this is very hard for me..

it's just a simple thing but very hard for a person like me...

but i'm improved a lot...much more better than yesterday or before...

i became someone new ...lols...(ni perasan suda nie..)

Wah, hidup ini penuh dengan cabaran...yeah this is so true...

having my first salary on 30th sept, but the money almost finish now...

buying new rice cooker, externl hardisk , and more...(it's all becoz the it fair) hihi

oh..now i'm worried abt the whole month budget...

need to save some money for the 29th trip...eishshhhh

..new pic uploaded...

having dinner with Veron & Wardy at Anjung selera...

the drinks is nice but the food a bit....no good...^^

i'm counting the days...

can't wait for the interview result to cme out..

i hope ..i hope..and i hope..and i will always hope..

22th Sept 2011,

2011-09-22T05:43:00.000-07:00

a day where i was hoping too much,.
and i end up feeling so upset about what already happen...
I want it so badly but i don't prepared myself better,
and now i know that i can't have it...so sad...

I did many mistake for today...and not in a good mood all day...
keep hoping for a better outcome bur yet me myself know that's there is no better outcome..
i wrongly answered the questioned...
so so sad rite knw...
:(

2011-09-18T09:15:00.000-07:00

~~18th Sept 2011~~, my 1st month working, ....
i feel so relax already, the awkward feeling slowly fade away...
And no more mistake happen, feel better now...
Going home tdy, just for a day....going back to work again tomorrow...
oh i'm happy being at home even just for few hours...
and feel so lazy going back there..working..
i finally realized that being matured is harder than i use to thought..
but, I'm still glad having this job, coz it does help me in many things..
Help me improve my bad personality...
I'm better than the old me...
"fear" this is what i have with me in two weeks working there, but i get rid of it the next weeks..
I need to asks in order to know how to do it...
"Smile" this is what I've never missed to do in a day...
Having a nice colleagues and nice boss too...
hope for better day tomorrow, i'm not hoping for any mistake, but if it happen, i don't need to be stress...
I just need to learn from mistakes...:)
Thank u god for such a great opportunity...:)
"Put God in the center and everything will be okay"-Clr-
have a nice day everyone..

2011-08-31T19:27:00.000-07:00

third Day of my bla bla world..20 august 2011..

2011-08-20T04:33:00.000-07:00

hola bloggers, how's yr day..

was it happen like wht u wish everyday before u sleep n facing the #unwrriten# 2morrow..

big sigh*..

I started to work now,..

this is what i wish every night b4 i go to sleep..

and finally..that day came..i dreamed tht i get the job b4 tht..

n the next early morning, i get a phone call frm the HR department..

i finally get the jobs...and i was like !!!!yeahhhhhh!!! all the time..

*but*

now, the third day of working..

i am so damn awkward + clueless...

...............................................................................................

i need to relax n i can't do any mistake...

i'm doing something i've never learn before and never seen..

new things..

i dn't knw why...but it's hard for me to remember the steps to follow..

and i always make mistake..haiyaaaa...

wish to learn everything faster..

" Thank you god for giving me this jobs and opportunity to make myself better thn i use too"

smiling, this is wht inever stop doing now, ..

yeah god teach me to be more kind to others..

what i wish to do before but never ever done it..

Thnks for everything..

..end my writting now..

seeya again..later..

Waiting for the phone call..

2011-08-13T11:52:00.000-07:00

It's been three days,

and since that day, i've been hoping and praying..

But i aso don't put too much hope on it..

i just wish..:)

wed 10 aug, 2011

2011-08-09T10:58:00.000-07:00

peace in yr heart and you'll be save..

this month is someone month,

and i hope it's my lucky month too..

having to much fun with my un-ending holiday..

enough sleep, eat and i can do whatever i want to do..

can't wait for the august trip..

2011-08-03T09:58:00.000-07:00

every day is the new beginning..

and what's meant to be, will always find a way..

JobS..

it's harder than what i've imagine..

yeppsss...

i just hope i found a job so i will not lazy'g at home..

pls make it happen god..

;(

it's been a while....

2011-07-28T21:12:00.000-07:00

this is me in the morning..

The very2 lazy girl..

today, start of a new fresh day..

smile and everything will be okey guys..

Bullet of my day:

* need to finish writing up the letter..

* prepare for tomorrow meeting

* and finding a jobs (MUST)

my day will always be the same as ytd,

but i'm having my best time ever..

i'm very2 free, of coz i love it..

sleep well, can do anything..

and it will soon stop when i get my job..

so i will enjoy it nicely..:)for now..

God bless us always, have faith..

11th july 2011, Monday

2011-07-11T08:39:00.000-07:00

a day where i'm so nervous and not thinking of doing any mistake..

yeah, i got my first job interview tdy..

the first experience of being interviewed r terrible...

i noticed that even i have prepared myself with a speech, i still lack in many things..

very very lack..and my english turn upsidedown..

it's sound like a kindergarden kid speak..

but after that interview, i don't think i want that job..

i wish i don't GET it..

really, well dis is becoz..the place is weird and somehow..i don't think i can get along well with the other workers, + the boss is kind of something..ehmm..P..

and the most funny things..

i get this quest.during interview..do u hav bf?

oh my gosh..why on earth, he hv to ask me tht..

i just shyly answer "no"

xoxo..

and tdy, i figured out d similarity btw me and my dad..

- We R shy..^-^

-We don't like to be late for an important meeting.

-i just look like him when i was angry or maybe mad at something...

i use to hate my dad sometimes, but i love him more than anything i ever showed..

i'm happy, we have alot of common..

one thing i really wish i hve in me too.. harworking..

one thing i'm proud enough abt him..

and my lil bro once tell me.,.

dad do all this hardwork for us, so later when he's not here anymore..

we will never suffer..

I know this, but i'm so bad , still so lazy to help him out..

he really want me to get a job, permanent job so i can help my family in money matters..

and i want to hv a job too, tht's why i'm happy when i get a phone-call for this interview..

but i don't think the place is good for me..

so i'll find another job which is better n near.

*Sigh, but this 1st exp, was so good even when i'm not doing great ..and i thankful god for this..:)

"Someday, you'll find the one who will watch every sunrise with you,

until the sunset of your life."

and it's come to my boring confession..

i'm listen to yr fav song..

i miss someone, someone i happen to **** for..

yeah, just finish sharing a love story with my sis..

and i happen to remember u..

and i miss those time when i admire u..

i'm a girl too..and it's really nice to hve those feelings.

been a long time, maybe it's another monkeylove but i hppy too..

i forgot bt u before and remember u today..

i wish u once thought abt me too..

and rite now..

i'm so regret for being the opposite me that time..

a time whre i wish i can tell u F2f but i'm nt brave enough..

and i'm going to have someone someday..

and if i ever meet u again..

i'll be very2 pretty..

and i'll make u regret for not wanting me

" that time" , i once think maybe u feel the same too but i know it's impossible..(funny)

so i just let it go ...( Crazylovestory)

hahahahah...funny to think abt it again..beinginloveissilly..

n tdy, call Bok2 aftr a long time..and i miss her so so much..

and miss yatie&yifei too...

#bFf-yatieyifeijennbBmala-it's good to meet n having u'll as my best friend..

-shared a secret, eat 2gether, outing 2gethr-

i miss those moment, when u'll taking care of me when i was sick..

and be there when i really need someone..

most important , we do trust each other..

and fighting make us more close..

imissuallsosomuch...

thank god for giving me the best friend that i can really rely on..

+celor & debra too..

my sis &lil bro..

and i promise, i will be a better sister that my siblings will count on too..

a sister they r not afraid of and a sister they'll find when they hv a problem..

coz there's a secret where u only can share it with yr family..

it's not tht u don't trust yr friend..u just don't want to hurt them..::)

ohww..it's getting late..i'm writing so long , blah blah blah..

good nite, god bless u, & everyone..

sweet dream..

thank u god :) for lighting my life and give me a great family, friend and wonderful life..:)

9th july, 11 - The unexpected news..

2011-07-08T05:52:00.000-07:00

and the story of the day start...

my day as usual, so lame..

and i've done the same routine everyday...

wake up, then go to "work" at gerai..

go back...and facing my laptop again..

the unexpected news r i ...finally getting a job interview..

i accept a phonecall frm the department..

and i'm so happy..

God answer my prayer..

of coz, it's not confirm yet, but i just happy that i get it...

but happy + scare toooo...

i'm scared becoz it'd my 1st time ..go to interview..

well i've been a mum baby bfore this...

nvr work part time..that need to wear a proper dress..

i just so nervous, the day is coming though..

and i've been imagine things, if let say- i pass and get the job, where will i live..

and how to do the jobs...

at some point, i never think that i'll fail this..

yeah, this is me afterall..

i keep thinking only the best outcome..

and i wish i get the job too..

and but i still worried..

and i'm having too much fun lately..

working at gerai..

buat mee hun sup..(kerja senang)

my soup is getting better and ppl start to give compliment..

i like it, when ppl say that "wah sedap sup kmu ni ari b"

i'm happy..(i smile in my heart)

i can cook..

hehe..of coz i am..

but in my own house, i'm not that hardworking..

i only do job when i feel like i want too..

my mom keep complaining these day..

becoz the house is dirty or dishes is not done..

something like that...

lazygirl#

i wish i do well in my interview..

thank's god, i've been waiting...

and even if i don't get it...i still thank u like always...

coz i know..i have -hope- becoz your love for me..

and i trust u..always..

thank's..

next thing..

abt the bersih rally tomorrow..ops..today actually, becoz it's midnight alredi..

i don't understand what happen..

but i'm with bersih...

yeah, i want to be in tht rally if i can..

but my dad wouldn't like it..

and i've seen the video in youtube..

the uncle frm sarawak..

he's the man..

and the police, sry to say..they just talk rubbish..

talking about their rights..bullshit..

if the BN or kerajaan is not at fault, why do they care about the rally..

let it be..

awww....our country truly not fair n peace rite now..

bad....

i wonder what happen tomorrow..

but i don't wish bad thing happen coz my dad involve with d RELA things...

i just want the truth to be known..

enough with this..

stop rite here..need to cont. my fw ..daa..gd nite...:)

godblessmyfamilyfriendandus..

funny facts..

2011-07-07T09:55:00.000-07:00

why am i..?

me: not ready

true me: Bullshit, u just so chicken..

lols..that's true..

i'm chicken..

i want to b a bird ..fly away from this s'ment..

someday and i'm waiting..

the moment is there, i believe ...

8th July, 11 Friday..

2011-07-07T09:06:00.000-07:00

Most bloggers start out all enthusiastic but almost all blogs end up abandoned and forgotten..:-Smiles are like..

i finally writing again after a few days break..

i 've been wanting to write more about my day to day life..but i keep blurrrr..

and just look at the post, wondering what to post..

am i sound annoying or irritating if i post all about myself..

ahhhh duhhh..why i have this thinking..

this is my blog..and for sure i can write what i want..

"i always say yes I am going to post a post today but I always find some other work to do and I think 'well that's okay because I'll post tomorrow, it's only one day'.

and about me today, yesterday, tomorrow and the future..

me addicted to the new game..

Fw..

and my jobs now..

" jual mee sup"

lame..

and my life now..

B++..better but not very wonderful..

and my worries of the day..

jobs,

money,

business..

this is me..

never run out of problems..

hehe..

Twitter/ Tumblr..

i wonder how ppl get sooooo many ppl to foolloww them..

i want to hv many follower too..

and i keep following ppl ,

ppl who tweets and post pic's i love..

but in the end of the day..

i started to hate the tweets that keep repeating and someone who posts something that "idon't like/love to see"

and the next day..

i'll just delete/unfollowed them...

same with my friend at fb..

i don't know them..

why i hv to add them..

and for me..i'm not friendly enough to chat with stranger..

so i just deleted them too..

and deleting friend that i don't know still in process..

sry :(

i so meessed up these day..

and this year, i pray that i'll have a jobs..permanent job..before this end of 2011..

i hoping i can ..

and a little unforgettable worries..

- someone ask me..to be a bridemaids..

but i reject it and came up with a lie..

and i feel so guilty right now..

i am regret about it..

not becoz i reject it..but becoz i reject it with a lie..

i hope they will find a better person than me..

and i don't know..if they r talking behind my back ..

it's ok..:)

and another invitation to b a bridemaids for my friend sis..

i don't know what to do..

i...

miss bb , yifei , yatie , & mala..

so so much..

meet mala that day..and i enjoy the day..

but i really hope that six of us will go out 2geetther..

it's been a long time, i didn't see bb, yifei and yatie..

i miss those time when we r living in a same house..

eat together, laugh and watch movie 2gether..

ohw....guys i miss u all so so much...

let's meet up..

miss Celorrrr too..

today list of jobs to be done..

-resume

-lens

-fill the jobs available form..

-working

and lastly...games..

so good nite for today..

good morning..:)

2011-07-04T09:49:00.001-07:00

And it's taken me this long, but i figured it out-

2011-07-03T09:10:00.000-07:00

The Vamps Diaries & GleE

2011-06-27T11:28:00.000-07:00

"it's about the Salvatore brotherhood love story"

Humans, Vamps N werewolfsssss...

my fav series for now..can't wait 4 d season 3 ...dis sept..

Stefan,Elena, Damon..

i like damon more butttt becoz he's toooooo much hotter than Edward cullen...

so i just go for Michael Trevino..

Tyler as the werewolf..

i really like this vamps stories..

and i wish it does happen in my real tiny little world..

A fiction became reality..

it must be fun..

and sure i'll choose to be d werewolf..

seems to be much nicer thn the vamps..

Elena/Katerina petrova

she's pretty..so perfect ..

and i enjoy her twins character..

dn't knw which salvatore brother she'll end up wit..

but i hope shew will stay with stefan til the end..

and poor hot guy damon..

( dn't be sad, coz outside u still got Nina Dobrev.)

dis is my fav Girl & boy of Vamps.diaries..

Caroline ❤ Tyler

Vampheartwolf..

i like them prettymuch...

Tyler aka Michael..

oh boy, i thought u were still single..

but :( ,u actually just announced yr official relationship wit Tina aka Jenna frm Glee...

i'm sad 4 a little while...but it's ok becoz i love Jenna aswell..

Glee ready 4 season 3 tooo....

can't wait asooo..

-->learned sumthin frm glee..

i love all the glee members..

and the way the sings the song is just amazing..

wish to go to glee live tour..

someday..soonnnnn..

season 1 & 2 finish..

and gossip girl stuck right there..but will buy the Dvd soon enough..

lolz....

this is wht i'm doing for now..

watch tv series all day..

Stuck in my dark gloomy room...

and now..

finish all the series..

i'm free again..

i'm free to the lovely sunshine..

things back to normal..

face the sun, eating, laughing and just enjoy the smile..

i"m happy again..

hoping for better, but expecting the worst..

starting my own journal too..

just like d journal in The vamps diaries..

writing help u to get rid of d stress..

that's the scnd best solution after CRYING..

i don't sing & dance well..

so i'm trying to figure out what i'm really best at...

yeps...i need to find a job...tik tok bfore july..

i say it over & over again..but my mind just don't processing it well..

until now..i..still don't finish writing my resume yet.. #laZY#

sighhhhhhh.

hope that i'll send it tmrw...

must...

so long and gd nite..

Answers 3 Prayers

2011-06-27T11:26:00.000-07:00

2011-06-18T10:04:00.000-07:00

U'll never know what surprises god give you today..

2011-06-18T09:15:00.000-07:00

p/s: Thank you so much god, for giving me the best surprises ever..

and i just don knw how to say it really but, i really appreciate everything..

at one moment, i think i've lost evrything,

but the fact is, i just having enough time to learn about myself,..

and overcome my weaknesses..

and i know that i still need to have more time for my own to know better what myself really are..

i'm having the best time ever in my dark gloomy room..

^meditating^

haha..joking..

i just need some time to be with myself and i..

have a conversation with myself..

sound crazy rite..but u yrself need a time for yourself too..

a time to pleased myownself..

i still hav this weakness i need to get over of..

and it's hard..but i'm trying my best..

being a good one isn't the bad idea at all..

inplicity & beyond

2011-06-15T23:50:00.000-07:00

Nothing ever happens like you imagine it will. …

But then again, if you don’t imagine, nothing ever happens at all.

QOTD

2011-06-15T11:18:00.000-07:00

We sometimes encounter people, even perfect strangers, who begin to interest us at first sight, somehow suddenly, all at once, before a word has been spoken.

Fyodor Dostoevsky

The problem with myself..is

2011-06-15T07:30:00.000-07:00

copy this and that..

but i kind of like this phrase..

and i am this person,..

-over things that aren’t mine in the first place usually.

that's me,

i need to stop gettin use to it, ..!!!

well, i just react to it childishly..

and sometimes the feeling come uninvited..

it does irritate me so much..!!!!

I'm so miserable right now, and i have no idea why this happen!!?

sound so cheerful in a moment then suddenly so f**king sad..

what my life lead me actually..

but i'm not faking any stories..

it just happen the way it is..

u can't always wish that u have a happy story to share..

bad times will sure visit u too..

and the next day, maybe happiness will surprise u again..

bad-happy-bad-happy..

LOLZ, sometime when i read back what i've post..

i notice that i will run out of topic somewhere..

haha..maybe i'm still not good enough..

sry for that but i'll make sure, i learn to correct it..:)

back to topic of the day, jealousy..

jealous is u want it but somebody took it..frm my POV..

and u don't want them to have it, n maybe u'll consider it even if they want to share it..

but when they willing to share it equally, it is not jealous anymore..huhu..

some tips to not be the B* who got jealous easily..

❤ Bit your tougue - don't know how this work, but maybe it help...

❤ Trust & confident-

❤ be positive & stop comparing...

me myself should learn this..hoho..

overcoming jealousy will take time.

be patient with yourself..

Focus on being a good person, becoz that's what god want us to be..

and reading a bible do help..

it does help us to deal wit our problem..

and so shameful of me..i just started it..

and u learn that U r not the only unlucky person..

u just happen to be,

not everyday..

but there's one at a time ..

-god just want to test how strong and faithful we r ..

and most of the tests god had given to me, i hv failed him..

and this time, i'll just have to make it right, not just writing or saying it..but do mean it..

god bless me, them, and him..

A Heart Toward Him

2011-06-15T07:13:00.000-07:00

“God is always on the alert, constantly on the lookout for people who are totally committed to Him” (II Chronicles 16:9)God is looking for people who have a heart toward Him! Notice this verse doesn’t say, “God is looking for people who have perfect performance records, who never make mistakes.” No, God knows we are a work in progress. He is looking at our hearts. He knows we are going to make mistakes and fall down, but He also knows we are going to get back up and make the right choices. That’s having a heart toward Him—being committed that no matter how many times you fall, you are going to get back up and press forward toward the things of God. You’re not going to quit, you’re not going to give up, hold back, or lay down. You are going to rise up because you see His hand outstretched before you ready to help you move forward.

Remember, God is on the lookout for you today. He’s longing to be good to those who are seeking His goodness. Keep your heart turned toward Him and allow Him to strengthen and empower you to rise above every obstacle and live in victory in every area of your life!

If we have no peace, it is because we have forgotten that we belong to each other.”— Mother Teresa

2011-06-15T06:52:00.000-07:00

i'm so so sick these few days..

hate to talk, and awake..

i feel much better when i sleep..

and i've been sleeping for hours..and it's not getting me,,,, better,,

it's worst...

and being like this is not ok at all..

it suck...

wish to get better sooner..

"life moves pretty fast. If u don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it.."

QOTD,

Change who you are to change your life.

2011-06-08T09:15:00.000-07:00

God doesn't give you what you want, God gives you according to who you are.

Change in the inside not the outside.

there is more than just beauty..

we girls..yes we always want to be pretty..

pretty for others and for our-self..

but there's a limit on the eagerness to be pretty..

yeah..!!!!

i am..

i wish my confident level will be high as the sky..

i'm so jealous to a person with everything..

so proud and confident of something they do..

yeah, i judge this person while i'm on church, listening him singing..

he's so proud and full of confident..

yeah..why???

i keep questioning myself..why can't i be just like him..

ppl talk abt him..

bad ones..

but yet he still as good as he is..

huuuhhh..uhhwww...

and that very day..for the first time..

i am myself..

yeah, i'm not pretending..maybe a liltle but 99% is the real me..

the real me that i've been hide all this time..

yeah, that day..

i think i'm very pretty..and my confident level is good..

becoz of him..

i owe him tht..

and i care for what others opinion of me,..

i just care...so so much..

.................

8th june 2011..

happy birthday sis jenn..she's my bestfriend+ cousin..

i do love her so so much..

and i wish her good luck and her wish to come true..

and i am very very sorry if i ever hurt your feeling without notice..

and let's be friend forever..^-*

i'm so sorry..love u always..cibimi..

“The most beautiful kind of people are the ones who don’t know it.”

2011-06-07T11:17:00.000-07:00

a quote for people with less confident..

like me...^-*

been so busy to posts anything lately,..

busy with my cousin wedding..

back to write, lols..

having another blog to take care of, blog for myself and i..

so addicted to vampires diaries this moment..so i'm going to have my own blog for my own journal..

elena gilbert make me want to write more about my everyday living stories in my own journal..more prefer to write it in a "diary" but it's better in blog whre u can keep the secret from being read by others, just make another private blog..hihi..

i have many things to write before, my head full of something i want to tell..but becoz of my busyy things, i just don't know how to start it already..

let's just start about the wedding..

ah the wedding was a blast but not so so happening as what i've imagined..

yeah, i imagine things a lot and i, wht to say..ehmm i always daydreaming or imagine about something that will not happen in reality..

how to say it..

uuuuhh i don't know..

my imagination is about the story i've mde in my mind only..

i kinda create another world , in my mind..

where i became the person that i've never will become in reality..

and if i end up writing all the stories , me myself made up ..it will become a big hit for sure..

hahah,

ops, run off from the topic..

ah the wedding..

some pics ^-.

Moroon family..my big family..^_*

My cousins..from left- An, me2, me n big sis celor..^-8

me n me2 aka jenny..^-*

big sis n me

sweet gorgeous girl an..

three moroon princess...lolz...

my happy family..^-*..

there's more but this is what i like the most pica's..

hihihi..

and huh, there's shit happen that day..

and it's family matter afterall..

yep, the whether is not very good..big heavy rain..and the ppl blame *us for that..

and this is not good to talk that way..

coz we also don't wish it to happen..

weird ppl ..

i hate it when they trying to blame us for something that we don't do..

huh, and the bride make up is not ok..

i not that good in make up too..

but still i know how to do it better,..

ohw..i'm complaining too much..

just let it go this time..coz make up is not important..

i just happy finally my cousin end up marrying a good girl..a girl he deserve..

and for the girl, she's lucky..

became one of rajuah's family..

coz they r truly a good family..

despite of what happen that day, they just let it go, just take all the bad talking and throw it away from their heart..they don't even fight back..

the family is good, the problemo is the aunt & uncle..oh M G..

busybody^-*..

and get ready with our prepartion this saturday, u'll be shock..

coz we'll made it happening like we use to..hohoho..

let's partying until midnight..

it will be blast for sure..:)

and god i'm sorry..i don't pray too much these very day..

but i thank u for everything and i maybe don't have a long conversation with u these day but i will never forget to say thank you..

coz u become my light in my life..

u with me always..

yeah, i'm just so stupid..coz before, i want someone special in my life to0 bad..i mean BF..

i think that i will be lonely without it..i just want to try how it work with someone special....

and there's a time i pity myself for being so picky, and scared for nothing..i...when i say that i am grateful, sometime i don't really mean it..i say i'm okay with it..but until this moment i never okay with it, and i never satisfy with it..i'm sorry..i know u always know what i'm talking about..

and i'm a fool who forget that u always be with me, while others sometime forget about me..

u were there when i laugh too hard, i cry , i feel sad, i was angry ,nervous and jealous...

i maybe not seeing u face to face but i believe that u always there..

and i actually don't need a bf coz whenever i am i always have a better bf that is u...my God and i have faith in u always...thank u for everything..<3 ...

so good night..another day to come and to live well..:)

2011-06-01T09:46:00.000-07:00

2011-06-01T09:45:00.000-07:00

2011-06-01T09:06:00.000-07:00

hey hey hey, !!! June is comin'

2011-05-29T08:12:00.000-07:00

HUH, finally i hv time to write,

been so busy these day with senior wedding, and soon..my cousin wedding..

ulala..

<..our s.w.a.y senior wedding..>

lols, i laugh and enjoy the day very hard..

yeah. it was very great..

i dance and most important,

i'm myself tht day..

maybe i just starting to be mature, coz the shyness i hv in myself just started to fade..

and i'm just happy,

4 a liltle surprise my big sister gave me,

Carol oh Carol,

she's back ..

she knocked at my window at 2 am,

and i was so surprise and so so happy to see her..

H.a.p.p.y

coz i've been missing her so bad..

and the wedding is happening too..

let's just say it is..

coz yeah, i enjoy myself very much,..

get a hamper for the competition being held..

;)

and today,

church time..

after tht, go to kk..

shopping, then testing food for the wedding at Arkib sbh..

the food is very delicious...

until now, i still feel very full..

and my lens business is going very well..

:)...

yeah, this two days..

i have many things to post but, becoz i'm so busy,

i forget what i want to write ..

but i just remember this..

Mom, please don't worry too much, i'll try harder to make yr wish come true,

but pls wait patiently..

yeah, i give my mom too much worry,

i can see on her face, how much she don't have enough sleep and can't stop thinking

becoz of me..

yeah, i want what u want me to have so badly, but it's not my luck yet..

so pls wait patiently mom..

soon, i'll hve it..

my life story is not that bad, but sometimes i just complain and complain..

i appreciate it, but i just can't stop complaining..

i think i don't have anything when what i have is enough..

oh how i hate myself for being like this..

and when watching a drama, i just wish i'm born to be one of the lead female actress character, so everyone will be please with me..* big sigh..

i just wish for something isn't right..

and the best thing for me to stay calm is pray,.

pray to god, so that i don't become to selfish..

and it's help..

so guys, whenever u hv problem,

remember to pray , coz yr problem will be less..

It was so sad to read this..!!!! :(

2011-05-28T09:29:00.000-07:00

Hi, Mommy. I’m your baby. You don’t know me yet, I’m only a few
weeks old. You’re going to find out about me soon, though, I promise.
Let me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I’ve got
beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don’t have it yet, but I
will when I’m born. I’m going to be your only child, and you’ll call me
your one and only. I’m going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we
have each other. We’ll help each other, and love each other. I want to
be a doctor when I grow up.

You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn’t
wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was
perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I
will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I
know it already.

Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about
me! …He wasn’t happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don’t think that
you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called
wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don’t think I understand
yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did
something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and
your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay… but I was very sad
for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That’s a sound I don’t like. It
doesn’t make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after,
and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I’m not sure if I
do. It wasn’t right. You say he loves you… why would he hurt you? I
don’t like it, Mommy.

Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and
you’re so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes,
and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most
beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I’m
happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait
and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will
make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart.

I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your
hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love
you, Mommy.

Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting
funny and he wasn’t talking right. He said he didn’t want you. I don’t
know why, but that’s what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry,
Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won’t let you get hurt! I promise to
protect you. Daddy is bad. I don’t care if you think that he is a good
person, I think he’s bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn’t want
us. He doesn’t like me. Why doesn’t he like me, Mommy?

You didn’t talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?

It’s been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven’t talked to me or
touched me or anything since that. Don’t you still love me, Mommy? I
still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when
you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug
me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don’t you do
that when you’re awake, any more?

I’m 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren’t you proud of me? We’re going
somewhere today, and it’s somewhere new. I’m excited. It looks like a
hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell
you that? I hope you’re as excited as I am. I can’t wait.

…Mommy, I’m getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don’t
know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think
something’s going to happen soon. I’m really, really, really scared,
Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love
you!

Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It
feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!

Don’t worry Mommy, I’m safe. I’m in heaven with the angels now. They
told me what you did, and they said it’s called an abortion.

Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don’t you love me any more? Why did you
get rid of me? I’m really, really, really sorry if I did something
wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why
don’t you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want
to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care
about me, and not talk to me. Didn’t I love you enough? Please say
you’ll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and
see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don’t want to be here, I
want you to love me again! I’m really really really sorry if I did
something wrong. I love you!

I love you, Mommy.

Every abortion is just…

One more heart that was stopped.

Two more eyes that will never see.

Two more hands that will never touch.

Two more legs that will never run.

One more mouth that will never speak.

dear God,

2011-05-27T10:45:00.000-07:00

2011-05-27T10:35:00.000-07:00

2011-05-27T10:30:00.000-07:00

this is what we needed the most..

to live this complicated life..

so have it, and enjoy the world..

2011-05-27T09:55:00.000-07:00

Leave your fear behind

2011-05-27T09:50:00.000-07:00

You have to be strong girl. I know everything seems like a mess and nothing is going the way you want but you have to stay strong. I know how it feels to have everything taken from you and you feel so alone. You probably cry yourself to sleep every night. You listen to sad songs on repeat because they fit your life story right now. But you have to put a smile on your face and wipe away those tears, turn up your iPod and blast your music and scream on the top of your lungs. Because everything might be awful now but i can promise you that tomorrow might be the day that you change the world. Don't give up on anything.

One stormy night, A man was walking on a shaking bridge

2011-05-27T09:41:00.000-07:00

Boyz II Men- First Love Lyrics

2011-05-27T09:13:00.000-07:00

❤ the first song i love to hear the most..japan version -Utada Hikaru, but boyz II men was good too..enjoy this ❤

the last kiss we shared, tasted like a wine
sweet and bitter like, our memories
and i long for you to, come right back to me
tomorrow the time will be the same as today
nothing goes on in my heart except your memories
where will you be, and who will you think of…!

[chorus]
you were always gonna be my love
and you should know
even if i fall in love with somebody else
i’ll remember to love you taught me how
you were always gonna be the one
and for now, i’ll still be singing this love song
for… somebody like you
my first love…

time after time, baby i tried to forget our life together
but the memories are so so hard to let go
tomorrow the time will be the same as today
trying to hold back the tears when thinking of you
all i want is to be with you once more…!

you will always be inside my heart
and you should know
that i wish that i could ever let you go
i know that i love you [?]
now and forever see the one
and for now, i’ll still be singing this love song
for… somebody like you
my first love…

you were always gonna be my love
and you should know
even if i fall in love with somebody else
i’ll remember to love you to hell
you were always gonna be the one
i’ll still be singing this love song
for… somebody like you
my first love…

Never Shout Never: Hummingbird Lyrics

2011-05-27T08:48:00.000-07:00

I like you.
Girl you don't got nothin to prove to me
I know that times have been rough
For the both of us
But I'l pray for a change
You see this world has lots to offer
But in time it will go dark
And if this love is what we see it is
I'm sure we will go far
And with a girl as sweet as you
There's not much else I can do
But fall for you
You know that I'm a wreck
And you know I can't breathe
At the edge of my seat with each word
As months turn into years
Just know that I will wait here for you
Cause I prayed for a change

You see this world has lots to offer
But in time it will go dark
And if this love is what we see it is
I'm sure we will go far
And with a girl as sweet as you
There's not much else I can do
But fall for you
for you (X3)
This world has lots to offer
But in time it will go dark
And if this love is what we see it is
I'm sure we will go far
And with a girl as sweet as you
There's not much else I can do
But fall for you

★ I love this song so much ★

keep singing it again n again..

appreciate..

2011-05-26T06:32:00.001-07:00

keepin' it simple

2011-05-26T06:12:00.000-07:00

This what i'm doing, reblog someone posts..lols

2011-05-25T13:09:00.000-07:00

there's a story behind every person. there's a reason why they're the way they are.

they aren't just like that because they want to. something in the past created them, and sometimes it's impossible to fix them...

and everytime i feel very weak inside of me..

i'll prayed to god, so that i can faced the world fairly and confidently..

but deep inside me, i'm still very scared ..

i think i made a big mistake in my life..

and the mistake can't be erased same as the time can't go back..

i hurt his feeling, at same time i hurt my feeling too..

i don't know how to say it..

but i'm so sorry..

i'm not stupid to let it happen..but u just somehow hurt me ..

with what u say..

u hurt me, with what u tell the others..

and u hurt me by acting like that..

life is complicated..

i just so sorry..

and i want everything to end here..

the story of u in my life..*end*

so i'll live another day with better memory and feeling..

u give me an unforgettable experience..

Blair Waldorf- i miss the girl very much..-

2011-05-25T12:46:00.000-07:00

Leighton Meester:

“I like to be judged by my family and friends because they know me.

If they think I’m being and asshole I’d like them to tell me, but if I’m fat or something I’m like, ‘Well? so? Ok? Great!’ It doesn’t even matter; it’s like, what if I’m fat? Does it matter? I understand physicality is a huge part of my job,but I’m not trying to satisfy anybody but myself and the role that I’m playing, and also, I’m a grown woman and sometimes,

I might be a little fat, you know! Am I alone there? Not really!”

i love the confident she have..

i adore her so much..

i love the way she bitch the others..

and i love the way she living her life..

"Finding the perfect person won’t make you fall in love.

When you see an imperfect person perfectly; thats love.”

i'm worry abt my love line..

coz until now the line still empty..

i kept waiting and waiting for someone to fill the line..

but no one showed up..

me myself, wish for someone perfect to come, but

i do find someone imperfect r better than the perfect one..

i'm not That picky..

but i just don't trust ppl easily..

I just scared to fall and hard to believe ..

being alone is not bad, but i just wnt to try ..

two is better than one..

Kl trip pics

2011-05-25T10:16:00.000-07:00

The last day..5 hours bfore going back to sabah..

place that i miss the most..

of coz i will miss kl too..

i love kl, but i don't hv the intention to further study there..

maybe kl is just better for holiday trip..

* 19 may 2011 *

my convocation day..

my intelligent day ..:)

i finally graduated ..

Accountancy student..so proud

(even my pointer is nt vry good)

No .635..

i'm so happy..

i'll be there once again..someday..

i've made another promise to myself..

the next time is my degree time..

i will doing my best this time,

i really want to be announce as the *1st class student with the title*

i'm not very serious in study during my diploma..

but if god give me a chance to continue my degree,

i will do my very best..:)

The 4th day..

outing with cuzz..goyz & chrss..

enjoy the view of kl,

the people, the shopping mall, the most wanted place..

*times square, bB, Suria klcc*

special thnks to cuzzi..

hv fun with lysa n iana, pics taken at uitm shah alm..

idk wht they called this place,

i just know it's next

to design and art museum,

haha just randomly name'g the place coz it does look like museum..

eating rm 3 ABC at mamak stall..

maybe that's wht they call it..

so so delicious but too sweet..

need two ppl to finish it ..

TrIp to Kl..

2011-05-25T06:28:00.000-07:00

alohaaa...

it's been a super duper long time, i didn't post anything here..

busy with on9 game and sleeping..

Lolsz..

i hv a long 2 story to tell..

yeah!! i miss writing so bad..

happy to write again...

i've been in a trip to kl..

for my convocation at Shah alam..

yeah..i'm so excited to fly..

it's my 1st time..

Fly with firefly..

cheap and comfortable..

Go to kl on 15th may 2011, sunday..

it's always weird and funny for d 1st timer..

but i love to see the sky..

i sit next to the window..

and the sky looks very nice and peace of coz..

blue and white ..

and frm above, we can see everything..

all things became smaller when we r above the sky..

it's beautiful..

A perfect amazing world that god has prepared to us..

..................

next, we arrived..

Jenn's brother assistant already ready to bring us to the hotel.

(*special thank Ricky)

nice room with no wifi..:(,

scnd day, go out wit lysa, iana and iana fren gabby..

miss them so so much..

(* special thnks again to lysa and iana..)

we go to uitm shah alam..

meet lysa family - her sister birthday party..**

go to uptown.. mala sing a song infront of all ppl..she's a great singer...

thumbs up for mala..

*rasamas memory*...we teasing mala fren for the 1st time meeting..

funny, very very funny..unexpected plan became reality..

and lysa memory too..

it's the first time i've seen her screaming like tht..

the third day..doing nothing, just having enough sleep..

and the 4th day..we going out with my cousin Goyz..

hv so much fun and lost more money at Klcc..

Times square, Bukit bintang, Suria klcc..

i wish i can go to kl once again..

coz we didn't make it to genting..:(

miss midvalley...and the aquarium..

watch midnight movie..-fast and furious..

the movie was very very exciting...

want to watch it again..later..

the 5th day...my convocation day..

My no. 635..

the first person for the second round..

lolz...it was so hot that day..

wearing heels is killing me..

but i'm happy -finally i'm graduated..

accountancy student...my pointer is not tht great but i still proud of myself..

(* special thousand thnks to my beloved mom..becoz without her, i can't make it to be there :) )

and the last day..- we r going back to sabah..:))))))

sabah r better than kl..

maybe kl r just a place whre i can enjoy myself, but sabah is the best place to live..

and the ppl also seem to be 100% different..

the way they see other ppl and the way they talk..

the 1st day we r at shah alam..

when we going to buy some foods and trying to find the way to uitm shah alam..

i noticed that ppl start watching us like we r from the other planet..

weird...but true..

and during the convocation day..i didn't even talk to other..becoz i don't really understand what they talking abt, so i just sit quietly..but actually, that just becoz of me being me myself..

if i don't know the person closely..i will not talking to them..

ohw poor me, ..and the convocation day was very2 boring..

i feel very sleepy becoz we go to sleep very late the day bfore....

and tell u what..

my convo pics look very2 funny..and i can't bear to look at it too long..

maybe i just so nervous..

but i'm just so happy when the ceremony ended..got a red roses flower frm my mom..

:))

so sad becoz we can't accompany mala for her convocation day..

but we buy her flower so she will not be tht sad..love u mala, i'm glad to be yr fren..

and talking abt mala.. she make us laugh very hard..i wish i can became just like her..talkative, funny and more...i can't stop smiling everytime i remember funny things she does at Kl...

....that's all , a lil bit story of mine at KL....

:)..and thanks god, we going back safe from kl..

i started to miss mala...^^and my ex classmate of acd6a1...:(...

the rainy heart

2011-05-14T02:22:00.000-07:00

I’m not going to try and make him “love me”. I’m not going to go out of my way to make him fall. I’m going to be my self and while i may not be perfect or flawless, i think i’m worth it. If he falls in love with me, he does and if he doesn’t it just wasn’t meant to be and someday i’ll find somebody who will.

2011-05-10T12:39:00.000-07:00

smile first...

angry later..

good morning..

hope u guys start yr day with a big smile on yr face..

and believe that..

yeah, my better day will come..

maybe today, tomorrow or the next day..

i thank him today, and the day before and the day after..

Flying... to the sky..soonnnn..

2011-05-10T11:32:00.000-07:00

hollllaaaaa~!!!!!, long time didn't post anything here..

seem so quiet, and peace here...

My life - like what has been written in a God "story book"...

And word for today

Everyone has their own rhythm of living,
- for some it's faster, for other it's slower.
When you are forced to live outside your own rhythm, it is exhausting.
Remember to keep coming back to your own rhythm.

If you want to change something in your life, focus on the inner,

and God will take care of the outer.

another story of mine..

been in a money business online these few days..

and the outcome is very2 good..

quite good but not that good..

and the only thing i need to is find people to join under me..

and i have this unhappy feeling, god knows the best about my feeling..

and i'm not okay with that..

oh god, please help me*..u know what i mean..please help me*...

i just worry that becoz of me, some ppl might not feel very peace or calm this few days..

i prayed every night..please help this ppl..

and the money problem have been solved..

and i should be happy for the good news, but i'm feeling not good, and deep inside my heart, i want to cry out loud..

i'm so sad to have this solution..

it does solved everything but i just don't feel happy about it...

i wish i can speak my heart out..so i didn't be this sad ..:(

and God please show me what to do..

:(((((

yeah, everyday , a new history will be created..

and it might not be the memorable history but at least it a story to tell and to be remember..

i hope tomorrow, it will be better,

and whatever happen..

"let it happen as what him -our father of heaven wish"

-jadilah seperti kehendak-Mu-

and now,

..forget the unhappy memory..

5 days left..

i'll be in the sky...

blue sky..:)

....

and

suddenly i missed my uitm friend so so much..

my best classmate...

wish all of u good luck and healthy always..:)

and special thank to my family..My mom..

and thnk u God for everything..

maybe there's a time when i'm so so bad, please don't be sad..

i'll change for sure..

2011-05-02T10:52:00.000-07:00

One of the best things in life

watching cocky, arrogant boys who think they can get any girl on the planet being rejected...

Love Alone..song u need to listen..

I don't wanna be in love alone
Wanna give you my heart
But you can't be playin' cause
I don't wanna be in love alone
See me falling, yeah but I can't be the only one
Cause I don't wanna be in love alone
So give it to me straight, know you feeling me baby
No I don't wanna be in love alone
All on my body, and I just can't take it

Heart racing, It's amazing
The way you got me off on my game
No secret, Imma go head and say it
Ya lovin' got me feeling this way (yeah, yeah)
If It's an illusion
I need you to tell me now
No room for confusion
I need you to let it out

Staring into space
Thinking about the way you
Be having me calling your name
Get distracted, Hard to focus
Boy you know you got me open
Wanna know
(Oh ooh Oh ooh Oh baby let me know)
Whatever you wanna do (yeah, yeah)
(I can make it yours
If you ready for it)
But you gotta be true
Cause I

love NEVER dies

2011-05-01T04:41:00.000-07:00

“Comparisons are easily done, once you’ve had a taste of perfection…”

This isn’t a love story about how I got together with that someone and I’m still with him and we’re so in love. This is how I had love, and I lost it, but I will never give it up. Ever. It will always be mine, and I will always be in love.

Once upon a time, years ago, there was a boy named Dylan. He had the sweetest blue eyes you could have ever seen, and the nicest personality… he wouldn’t ever do anything to hurt anyone.
And of course, I fell in love with him. I admired him for all those years, because I always thought I was too young for him (even if our age difference is only a year apart) and I always thought I would never be enough for him, I’d never be his and he’d never be mine. I always thought it was just a silly dream of mine to end up with his arms around me, his lips on mine, his love…

But, after all those years of secretly wanting, but never having, I finally got you.
And I had you, at least for a little while. It ended, after about a month. I ran away. You were only the second person I had ever slept with, and you were my second real relationship - and the man before you had taken my virginity, and I thought I was in love. I was broken badly when he ended it and left me to realize he’d never meant anything he said the whole 4 months he was with me, they were all just words to take something from me that he still has, and will always have. I had fallen in love with you so fast, I couldn’t even tell which way was up and what was down. I was so gone for you that there was no turning back.

I didn’t want it to end, but it did. We were both in bad places - you with your ex of 2 1/2 years, and me with my ex who had taken my virginity - so it wasn’t a surprise to either of us when it ended the way it did.
We stopped hanging out as often, I barely saw you. But when you invited me back over to your house again, I couldn’t help but drop any plans I had made that night and zip over to see you.
We were infinite again, for a while. But when I heard I had the chance to have you back, I was ecstatic. I dropped everyone who had ever shown interest in me since then, everyone… and I waited. I waited for you. And I would have waited forever…

And then on the night of that party, when you had gotten very, very drunk and stoned, and you were all over that girl… with me in the same damn room… I was heartbroken. I had never felt heartbreak like this, I had never felt that way before. It felt like everything in my chest and stomach had dropped to my knees. No tears fell, I figured you were just being your nice self, only being nice. But then you walked her home, and came back with not only her number, but another girl’s number as well, my insides fell another notch to my feet, and I wanted to throw up all over the cream-coloured carpet. The tears were going to come at any second, I could feel it.

Your brother came up to me, asked me if I wanted to smoke a cigarette because I was out, I nodded my head and followed him to the back door. I did everything in my power to keep my salty tears from bursting though their confines and dripping down my cheeks like a broken dam for a lake.

Your brother asked me if I was okay, and I spilled everything to him - everything but the tears, the tears I would not let fall. I was too stubborn and too strong. When you’ve been strong all your life, there’s nothing left to do but continue to be strong, even if you didn’t want to. He told me you was like that, that you were just really drunk and that he was sorry that these things were happening to me. I wanted to hug him and never let go, but I just took the cigarette he passed me instead and inhaled deeply.

I ate half a batch of hash crispies, and I drank more than I had probably drank in a while, just to try and rid my thoughts of you. But it wasn’t possible, it just made things worse, and I left. I couldn’t stand to watch you anymore, to watch you smile because of someone that wasn’t me, because of something I didn’t do. Just seeing that beautiful smile that once was directed at me, directed at someone else, because of someone else, broke my heart into a million tiny pieces all over again. It’s the worst feeling in the world when the person, the person you love more than you love yourself, doesn’t want you anymore.

The next day, when I was hungover and I was home, I was lazy, had no life in me at all… and when my cousin’s room mate asked me how I was, I shook my head and croaked “bad”. He asked why, and all those emotions that went through me the night before, rushed through my system again, and I broke down. I cried. He left, because he didn’t know what to do. I was alone, again, and I hurt so bad, I felt like I was never going to come back and be my normal self - that I was perminately broken until I had you. You were my bandaids and glue, you were my doctor, my fix-it. You didn’t even have to do anything to remedy anything that was wrong, all I had to do was look at you, and I was healed. I was better. But now when I look at you, I’m not filled with as much happiness as I was, I’m filled with heartbreak. You break my heart every time I see you.

The other night, I got invited over to your house for the first time in a month. And you were nice again, you paid attention to me, and I was in heaven. When I came home, I fell asleep unbroken for the first time in months. And I had a dream that you wanted me again. But when I awoke, I realized it was just a dream… and I was heartbroken all over again. But I don’t care. Because I love you.

Even after everything you put me through that night. After everything… you are still the one man I admire more than anyone else in this entire universe.

I will not stop loving you. Not ever, not when all my skin is gone from my bones and I’m nothing, not when the Earth stops rotating and not when the sun burns out. Because I will always remember when we were infinite, and everything was okay, and nothing mattered anymore - because I was in love.

And I still am, and I will never not be. And to all of you who have ever been in love like I am, or if you ever said you were in love… if you ever use the words “I loved you”, you were never in love with that person. Because love never dies. There is no “loved”, there is only “love”. And my love for him will never, ever, fade. It will never die, and I’m happy about that. Because he is the only one I have ever felt this way before. And maybe there’s hope for us yet, and maybe there isn’t. But I’m okay with that, too, because I will always have my memories and I will always be in love, even if he doesn’t love me back.

And for that, thank you, Dylan. I will always love you, even if the feeling isn’t mututal, even if you don’t want me like I want you, even if you are the father of this baby inside me. I will love you, always.

“You said move on, where do I go? I guess second best is what I will know.”

k.o.n.v.o.k.e.s.y.e.n day is coming!!!!!

2011-05-01T04:18:00.000-07:00

AC 110-DIPLOMA PERAKAUNAN

DIPLOMA IN ACCOUNTANCY

SIDANG KESEMBILAN

AC551, AC552, AC450, AC220, AC150, AC120, AC110

(Dari abjad A hingga Mohammad Shaiful Azrul Bin Anuar)

OM221, OM222, OM223, OM224, OM114

19/5/2011: Khamis : 7.30 Pagi

The day will come..!!!

635. Genevieve Binti Anthony

673. Jennyana Binti Juantin

825. Nadrah Binti Mohd Madrah

can't wait 4 d day to come..

Accounting the best!!!

2011-04-29T20:53:00.000-07:00

Health:

Drink plenty of water.
Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
Live with the 3 E’s - Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy
Play more games.
Read more books than you did in 2010.
Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
Sleep for 7 hours.
Take a 10-30 minutes walk daily. And while you walk, smile.

Personality:

Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
Don’t have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
Don’t over do. Keep your limits.
Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
Don’t waste your precious energy on gossip.
Dream more while you are awake.
Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
Forget issues of the past. Don’t remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don’t hate others.
Make peace with your past so it won’t spoil the present.
No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
Smile and laugh more.
You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Society:

Call your family often.
Each day give something good to others.
Forgive everyone for everything.
Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
Try to make at least three people smile each day.
What other people think of you is none of your business.
Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:

Do the right thing!
Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.
However good or bad a situation is, it will change.34. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
The best is yet to come.
Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.

I am Blessed!!!!

2011-04-28T07:05:00.000-07:00

yeah!!!!

Thank u god..

I've got my "p"

lols...^_^ i'm so happy..

h.a.a.a.a.a.p.p.p.p.p.p.y.y.y.y.y..y.y..y

very2 happy..

have the JPJ test for tody..

and i've passed it..

finally, i can drive to anywhere i want to go alreadi..

I'm so so nervous at 1st..

and what "add" more to my "nervous" is when i know that i'm the 3rd person..

bergagarrrrrrr..

have trouble at bukit..

but still happy to see d " lulus" tick..

*-*

thank u god..

i pray and u hear my prayer..

as always..

"Jadilah kehendak-MU"

my fav qoute for tdy..

GBMA.

2011-04-25T22:09:00.000-07:00

na na na na..

finish wit my last driving class..

will hv d JPJ test this thursday,

i pray everything will be ok..and i just do my best..

thank god, things are normal rite now..

and i started to smile again..

:)...

my worry, please go away..

Yourself are....

2011-04-25T21:40:00.000-07:00

beauty inside and out..

that's what we should have..

Call this!!!

2011-04-25T21:35:00.000-07:00

this is interesting!!!...

When in sorrow …………………………………………. call John 14.
When men fail you ……………………………………… call Psalm 27.
If you want to be fruitful ………………………………..call John 15.
When you have sinned …………………………………. call Psalm 51.
When you worry …………………………………………. call Mat.6:19-34.
When you are in danger ………………………………… call Psalm 91.
When God seems far away …………………………….. call Psalm 139.
When your faith needs stirring …………………………. call Hebrews 11.
When you are lonely and fearful ……………………….. call Psalm 23.
When you grow bitter and critical ……………………… call I Cor.13.
For Paul’s secret to happiness ………………………….. call Col. 3:12-17.
For understanding of Christianity ……………………….. call II Cor.5:15-19.
When you feel down and out ……………………………. call Romans 8:31.
When you want peace and rest ………………………… call Mat.11:25-30.
When the world seems bigger than God ……………….. call Psalm 90.
When you want Christian assurance ……………………..call Romans 8:1-30.
When you leave home for labor or travel ………………. call Psalm 121.
When your prayers grow narrow or selfish …………….. call Psalm 67.
For a great invention/opportunity ………………………. call Isaiah 55.
When you want courage for a task …………………….. call Joshua 1.
For how to get along with fellow men ………………….. call Romans 12.
When you think of investments and returns …………… call Mark 10.
If you are depressed ……………………………………… call Psalm 27.
If your pocketbook is empty ………………………………call Psalm 37.
If you are losing confidence in people…………………… call 1 Cor 13.
If people seem unkind …………………………………….. call John 15.
If discouraged about your work…………………………… call Psalm 126.
If you find the world growing small and yourself great … call Psalm 19.

Alternate numbers:
For dealing with fear……….. call Psalm 34:7.
For security …………………. call Psalm 121:3.
For assurance ………………. call Mark 8:35.
For reassurance ……………. call Psalm 145:18.

Although forgiveness is very hard, it is necessary.

2011-04-22T22:28:00.000-07:00

Holding onto anger and old hurts hardens your heart and hurts only you. Ask for help in letting go of the anger. Ask to see the situation through the eyes of compassion. Allow yourself to feel the lightness of forgiveness.

things became very awkward right now..

the "I want to do" thing became "why i have to do it"..

it suddenly become very hard..

hard to admit that i am really sorry for that..

and what i hate the most about it..when i really want this thing to be ok..

i just ignore it when they try to talk to me first..

i'm the one who play hard to get..

and one thing in my mind at that time..

You hurt me more than what i do..

i become somebody else ..

somebody else that i don't imagine i can be..

oh i wish , that i'm not hve been this angry..

i say words that i don't really meant it..

maybe only at that time ..i really meant it becoz i just so so angry..

i'm not mature enough to handle this small argument..

oh i pray...and when i finish praying, my mood is ok ..

but suddenly i just ...don't want to listen to her voice..

it make me remember what has happen,..and the things that happen really broke my heart so much..

oh god please help me..

let me get out from this stress situation..

pls...

and cool down my anger god..

i know, u know me the best...

help me overcome my weakness god..

get rid me from this stupid anger..

..:(

Good Friday..

2011-04-21T23:00:00.000-07:00

Good Friday

On Good Friday Christians remember the day that Jesus was killed on the cross. He was nailed to a wooden cross by Roman soldiers. This is the reason why the cross is an important sign for Christians today. There are crosses in churches and many Christians wear a cross on a chain. At Easter people eat hot cross buns which have a cross shape on the top.

Good Friday is a sad day and churches never have flowers or decorations on this day. The church is left dark and there is just a simple cross on the altar. It is known as Good Friday because Christians believe that Jesus gave up his life for the good of everyone.

The Crucifixion is remembered in Jerusalem even today. Large crowds of Christians take the same path as Jesus. In some countries people act out the story of Jesus' last day while others watch and think about the events which happened long ago.

Happy Good Friday everyone..

and me myself have it own unsettled problem..

still unsettled until this very good day...

at my age now, i still don't really understand the meaning of this good friday..

i try hard to act like i know everything ..

but there's a lot of thing i need to figure it out..

and reading help me alot at this time..

wish i can fully understand the meaning..

but one thing i never forget...that god is love..

He loves us the best

he love us , no matter who we are and what we did..

i just wish i can love others same like God's love.

wishing u all have a great Good Friday.

world was made for you

2011-04-15T09:11:00.000-07:00

Enjoy it, explore it, experience it. Don't hold back. It is God's gift to you.

Don't be a wallflower in the dance of life.

He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless.(Isaiah 40:29)

Happy palm sunday everyone..

Hair, how to style it prettily.....let's learn 2gether

2011-04-12T07:45:00.000-07:00

girls, let's be pretty..

style your hair and be different..

H.e.r.r.i.n.g.b.o.n.e Braid

Directions:

Gather a section of hair where you want the braid to start.
Insert your left index finger through the strand, bottom to top, separating the section into two strands. Use your right hand to finish separating the two strands.

Gather a small section of hair from the right side of the head.
Move the section over your index finger and combine it with the left hand strand (between your thumb and index finger.)

Transfer both strands to your right hand.
Gather a small section of hair from the left side of the head.
Move the section over your index finger and combine it with the right-hand strand (between your thumb and index finger.)
Transfer the strands back into your left hand.

Repeat 3-8 until there is no more hair to add.
Take the right strand in your right hand and the left strand in your left hand.

Note: For the sake of clarity, we'll say that the last section of hair gathered was from the left crossing over to the right.

Insert your right index finger, palm up, through the back portion of the right strand, separating off a small section.

Turn your right hand palm down and add the separated section to the strand in your left hand. (Return your right hand to palm-up position.)
Use your left index finger to separate a small section from the back of the left strand.
Turn your left hand palm down and add the section to the right-hand strand. (Turn hand palm-up again.)

Repeat steps 11-14 to end of braid.
Tie off with hair fastener.

T.w.i.s.t Braid

Directions: Gather a section of hair where you want to start the twist. Insert your index finger from under the section to the top of the section, splitting the section into two strands
Twist both strands in the same direction and cross over in the opposite direction. In this example, twist to the right a couple times, then cross the right hand strand over the left hand strand. Gather small sections of hair (as for french braid) and add one to each strand before continuing.
Repeat instructions 3-4 to bottom of head. Repeat instruction 3 to bottom of braid.
Finish off twist with hair fastener.

I don't know day!!!

2011-04-12T00:10:00.000-07:00

Life is not lost by dying;

life is lost minute by minute,

day by dragging day,

in all the thousand small uncaring ways.

holla, and today story of mine..

story of unemployed girl, who is lazy and stubborn..lols..

*downloading Cn blue First step album..

and my fav song of all..Love girl, listening to the song now..

nxt,reading fuckyeahlove posts the whole day..

there's not too much customer today..

and i wish we will had at least "night order"..

i really need higher salary this month..

i need to pay my debt,...

i just need money..

actually i have the money..

but ths month salary finish already,,,

buy dressssssss and other unimportant stuff..

i'm crazyy...

but it's ok, if i don't like the dress, i still can sell it ..

everything will be okey..smile....

hope so..

will hav my driving test this friday,

i'm veryy nervous..

hope everything will be ok..GBM

my latest pic with my new contact lens..blue sky...

ohw, i like my hair like tht, nice...

True faith flowers from and through doubt.

2011-04-09T09:31:00.000-07:00

If you never questioned your beliefs, - you are just a puppet dancing to somebody's strings.

If God had wanted your mindless obedience, you would've been created without mind and without free will.

But you have both so you can come to God of your own accord.

Just look at the lives of saints,

- most of them had gone through a dark night of the soul, and that's why their faith was so strong.

The path to true faith always goes through doubt.

So ask those questions you've always been afraid to ask, and find the answers, and then your faith will become unshakable.

Happy sunday..guys..

it's too late now, and i still not sleepy at all..

I'm so so happy again..

talking wit celor for almost 4 hours,..

i miss her so much, she laugh too much today..

I wish she always in a good condition..

stay healthy and lucky everyday..

she is the good person, and i believe, in every prayer she pray, god will listen to her..

I'm bad , and sometimes good too..

but i still believe , god still listen to every word of prayer came from my mouth..

god grant my wish, and there's a time when my wish just a wish that never happen..

i'm mad, sad and angry but, things happen for a reason..

and i believe it's always a good reason..

and another sad news..the cutie shinchan already died..

car or motorbike accident..

so so sad...

he's the cute cat i ever seen...like Garfield..

miss him now...:(..

ahhhhhh...sigh*, enough for now..

have choir at big church tomorrow..

God, i pray that we "sway" sing very well for tomorrow..

these day, we "sway" was very2 weak..

so let's us reunite and be stronger again...

let's us be the great SWAY..

help us god..

and bless all my family members, friends, all those who inneed and Him <3...

thank u god..^_~