hey hey hey, !!! June is comin'

HUH, finally i hv time to write,

been so busy these day with senior wedding, and soon..my cousin wedding..

ulala..

<..our s.w.a.y senior wedding..>

lols, i laugh and enjoy the day very hard..

yeah. it was very great..

i dance and most important,

i'm myself tht day..

maybe i just starting to be mature, coz the shyness i hv in myself just started to fade..

and i'm just happy,

4 a liltle surprise my big sister gave me,

Carol oh Carol,

she's back ..

she knocked at my window at 2 am,

and i was so surprise and so so happy to see her..

H.a.p.p.y

coz i've been missing her so bad..

and the wedding is happening too..

let's just say it is..

coz yeah, i enjoy myself very much,..

get a hamper for the competition being held..

;)

and today,

church time..

after tht, go to kk..

shopping, then testing food for the wedding at Arkib sbh..

the food is very delicious...

until now, i still feel very full..

and my lens business is going very well..

:)...

yeah, this two days..

i have many things to post but, becoz i'm so busy,

i forget what i want to write ..

but i just remember this..

Mom, please don't worry too much, i'll try harder to make yr wish come true,

but pls wait patiently..

yeah, i give my mom too much worry,

i can see on her face, how much she don't have enough sleep and can't stop thinking

becoz of me..

yeah, i want what u want me to have so badly, but it's not my luck yet..

so pls wait patiently mom..

soon, i'll hve it..

my life story is not that bad, but sometimes i just complain and complain..

i appreciate it, but i just can't stop complaining..

i think i don't have anything when what i have is enough..

oh how i hate myself for being like this..

and when watching a drama, i just wish i'm born to be one of the lead female actress character, so everyone will be please with me..* big sigh..

i just wish for something isn't right..

and the best thing for me to stay calm is pray,.

pray to god, so that i don't become to selfish..

and it's help..

so guys, whenever u hv problem,

remember to pray , coz yr problem will be less..

:)

It was so sad to read this..!!!! :(

Hi, Mommy. I’m your baby. You don’t know me yet, I’m only a few
weeks old. You’re going to find out about me soon, though, I promise.
Let me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I’ve got
beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don’t have it yet, but I
will when I’m born. I’m going to be your only child, and you’ll call me
your one and only. I’m going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we
have each other. We’ll help each other, and love each other. I want to
be a doctor when I grow up.


You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn’t
wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was
perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I
will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I
know it already.


Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about
me! …He wasn’t happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don’t think that
you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called
wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don’t think I understand
yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did
something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and
your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay… but I was very sad
for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That’s a sound I don’t like. It
doesn’t make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after,
and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I’m not sure if I
do. It wasn’t right. You say he loves you… why would he hurt you? I
don’t like it, Mommy.


Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and
you’re so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes,
and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most
beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I’m
happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait
and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will
make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart.


I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your
hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love
you, Mommy.


Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting
funny and he wasn’t talking right. He said he didn’t want you. I don’t
know why, but that’s what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry,
Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won’t let you get hurt! I promise to
protect you. Daddy is bad. I don’t care if you think that he is a good
person, I think he’s bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn’t want
us. He doesn’t like me. Why doesn’t he like me, Mommy?



You didn’t talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?



It’s been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven’t talked to me or
touched me or anything since that. Don’t you still love me, Mommy? I
still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when
you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug
me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don’t you do
that when you’re awake, any more?


I’m 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren’t you proud of me? We’re going
somewhere today, and it’s somewhere new. I’m excited. It looks like a
hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell
you that? I hope you’re as excited as I am. I can’t wait.


…Mommy, I’m getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don’t
know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think
something’s going to happen soon. I’m really, really, really scared,
Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love
you!

Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It
feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!

Don’t worry Mommy, I’m safe. I’m in heaven with the angels now. They
told me what you did, and they said it’s called an abortion.


Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don’t you love me any more? Why did you
get rid of me? I’m really, really, really sorry if I did something
wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why
don’t you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want
to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care
about me, and not talk to me. Didn’t I love you enough? Please say
you’ll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and
see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don’t want to be here, I
want you to love me again! I’m really really really sorry if I did
something wrong. I love you!

I love you, Mommy.

Every abortion is just…

One more heart that was stopped.

Two more eyes that will never see.

Two more hands that will never touch.

Two more legs that will never run.

One more mouth that will never speak.

dear God,

this is what we needed the most..

to live this complicated life..

so have it, and enjoy the world..

Leave your fear behind

You have to be strong girl. I know everything seems like a mess and nothing is going the way you want but you have to stay strong. I know how it feels to have everything taken from you and you feel so alone. You probably cry yourself to sleep every night. You listen to sad songs on repeat because they fit your life story right now. But you have to put a smile on your face and wipe away those tears, turn up your iPod and blast your music and scream on the top of your lungs. Because everything might be awful now but i can promise you that tomorrow might be the day that you change the world. Don't give up on anything.

One stormy night, A man was walking on a shaking bridge

Boyz II Men- First Love Lyrics

❤ the first song i love to hear the most..japan version -Utada Hikaru, but boyz II men was good too..enjoy this ❤

the last kiss we shared, tasted like a wine
sweet and bitter like, our memories
and i long for you to, come right back to me
tomorrow the time will be the same as today
nothing goes on in my heart except your memories
where will you be, and who will you think of…!

[chorus]
you were always gonna be my love
and you should know
even if i fall in love with somebody else
i’ll remember to love you taught me how
you were always gonna be the one
and for now, i’ll still be singing this love song
for… somebody like you
my first love…

time after time, baby i tried to forget our life together
but the memories are so so hard to let go
tomorrow the time will be the same as today
trying to hold back the tears when thinking of you
all i want is to be with you once more…!

you will always be inside my heart
and you should know
that i wish that i could ever let you go
i know that i love you [?]
now and forever see the one
and for now, i’ll still be singing this love song
for… somebody like you
my first love…

you were always gonna be my love
and you should know
even if i fall in love with somebody else
i’ll remember to love you to hell
you were always gonna be the one
i’ll still be singing this love song
for… somebody like you
my first love…

Never Shout Never: Hummingbird Lyrics

I like you.
Girl you don't got nothin to prove to me
I know that times have been rough
For the both of us
But I'l pray for a change
You see this world has lots to offer
But in time it will go dark
And if this love is what we see it is
I'm sure we will go far
And with a girl as sweet as you
There's not much else I can do
But fall for you
You know that I'm a wreck
And you know I can't breathe
At the edge of my seat with each word
As months turn into years
Just know that I will wait here for you
Cause I prayed for a change

You see this world has lots to offer
But in time it will go dark
And if this love is what we see it is
I'm sure we will go far
And with a girl as sweet as you
There's not much else I can do
But fall for you
for you (X3)
This world has lots to offer
But in time it will go dark
And if this love is what we see it is
I'm sure we will go far
And with a girl as sweet as you
There's not much else I can do
But fall for you

★ I love this song so much ★

keep singing it again n again..

appreciate..

keepin' it simple

This what i'm doing, reblog someone posts..lols

there's a story behind every person. there's a reason why they're the way they are.

they aren't just like that because they want to. something in the past created them, and sometimes it's impossible to fix them...

and everytime i feel very weak inside of me..

i'll prayed to god, so that i can faced the world fairly and confidently..

but deep inside me, i'm still very scared ..

i think i made a big mistake in my life..

and the mistake can't be erased same as the time can't go back..

i hurt his feeling, at same time i hurt my feeling too..

i don't know how to say it..

but i'm so sorry..

i'm not stupid to let it happen..but u just somehow hurt me ..

with what u say..

u hurt me, with what u tell the others..

and u hurt me by acting like that..

life is complicated..

i just so sorry..

and i want everything to end here..

the story of u in my life..*end*

so i'll live another day with better memory and feeling..

u give me an unforgettable experience..

Blair Waldorf- i miss the girl very much..-

Leighton Meester:

“I like to be judged by my family and friends because they know me.

If they think I’m being and asshole I’d like them to tell me, but if I’m fat or something I’m like, ‘Well? so? Ok? Great!’ It doesn’t even matter; it’s like, what if I’m fat? Does it matter? I understand physicality is a huge part of my job,but I’m not trying to satisfy anybody but myself and the role that I’m playing, and also, I’m a grown woman and sometimes,

I might be a little fat, you know! Am I alone there? Not really!”

i love the confident she have..

i adore her so much..

i love the way she bitch the others..

and i love the way she living her life..

"Finding the perfect person won’t make you fall in love.

When you see an imperfect person perfectly; thats love.”

i'm worry abt my love line..

coz until now the line still empty..

i kept waiting and waiting for someone to fill the line..

but no one showed up..

me myself, wish for someone perfect to come, but

i do find someone imperfect r better than the perfect one..

i'm not That picky..

but i just don't trust ppl easily..

I just scared to fall and hard to believe ..

being alone is not bad, but i just wnt to try ..

two is better than one..

:)

Kl trip pics

The last day..5 hours bfore going back to sabah..

place that i miss the most..

of coz i will miss kl too..

i love kl, but i don't hv the intention to further study there..

maybe kl is just better for holiday trip..

:)

* 19 may 2011 *

my convocation day..

my intelligent day ..:)

i finally graduated ..

Accountancy student..so proud

(even my pointer is nt vry good)

No .635..

i'm so happy..

i'll be there once again..someday..

i've made another promise to myself..

the next time is my degree time..

i will doing my best this time,

i really want to be announce as the *1st class student with the title*

i'm not very serious in study during my diploma..

but if god give me a chance to continue my degree,

i will do my very best..:)

The 4th day..

outing with cuzz..goyz & chrss..

enjoy the view of kl,

the people, the shopping mall, the most wanted place..

*times square, bB, Suria klcc*

special thnks to cuzzi..

hv fun with lysa n iana, pics taken at uitm shah alm..

idk wht they called this place,

i just know it's next

to design and art museum,

haha just randomly name'g the place coz it does look like museum..

eating rm 3 ABC at mamak stall..

maybe that's wht they call it..

so so delicious but too sweet..

need two ppl to finish it ..