When you speak honestly and openly, others truly listen to you.

That it is very difficult to take care of others unless you have first taken care of yourself.

Movie Time!!!

Just finish watch Confessions of a Shopaholic ...

The girl with green scarf^^...

i do love shopping very much,...

n 4 years frm now,

i will have my credit card,.

must^-^

and what i like the most in tht movie is..

Luke, the sweet & charming guy,,,

Every girl have their dream perfect guy..

a guy who laugh with ur stupid joke,

a guy who understand ur needs & wants...

a guy who will be there when u need him...

a guy who stand by you when u r down...

a guy who will guide u to a better road...

a guy who just perfect...

but it's just a DREAM...Dream tht will make every girl smile crazily when they think of it..

cos, it impossible to happen in the real world..

maybe in a movie...

but not in our life...

yr bf will not be yr perfect guy...

they will be different...different frm what u ever dream...

but u still love them ...cos it's just happen...

that's what we call love..

it's happen without a reason..-_-

i never hav a close boy bestfriends..

and i'm going to have one frm now..:)

and it's ok being single,..

cos..living in a dream is more happier thn yr real life story...

i even imagined myself..

Married to Mr.Changmin, my fav boy ever...

it's fun to dream of something impossible...

it's just like another fairytale...

i can be the girl i'm never be in the real life...

.....and i just be myself....the real me..

without faking my smile..^^

.....^^

huh, it's tired to be fake...

it's just same as being sad...

....

XX

Start your day with prayer..-_-

Morning...

:) a big smile for tdy..

Wish things will be better today...Miss my all classmate very much..

Re blogged this from iana^^...

"HOW"

Notes to self:,

Don't worry, if it's supposed to happen, it will..

DBSK facts..

1. During Rising Sun's time Yunho gave his bed to Jaejoong because of the injury he had in his knee.

2. Duarte Rising Sun period, TVXQ won a prize but because of his injury he could not go so Yunho took the prize and said "This belongs to Jaejoong!"

3. Yoochun and Changmin once said, "It would not be TVXQ without or leader Yunho"

4. Junsu's response to the incident of changing the member was "If one of the members leave I will not stay in TVXQ."

5. Changmin's response to the incident to change of members was "If any of us leaves TVXQ, I return to my life as a normal high school student."

6. When members asked who was the person of his intended, all replied "Members."

7. Jaejoong once wrote in his Cyworld "Our friendship is stronger than other people because we speak and breathe in the same room eat and sleep in the same place ...."

8. 2004 on the birthday of Yoochun, Yunho told the fans "Please take care of our Yoochun, I have no words to express Yoochun I LOVE YOU!"

9. on September 10, 2005 in a fanmeeting Changmin was asked which new year gift you would like and he replied "The only gift I really want now is Jaejoong hyung's knee recovers soon." After that the cameras Jaejoong focused. Jaejoong doens't like to be watched when he's crying, so he bass the sight and the tears started to fall down by his cheeks

10. In a fanmeeting Changmin said "Only when the five are together is that when we can call TVXQ"

11. in August 2005 Yunho put Junsu on his back and took him to the hospital when Junsu had a high fever.

12. When Jaejoong's knee was hurt Yunho wanted him to rest more, but Jaejoong said to Yunho, "Your stomach is not right you should be in the hospital not me."

13. The program of Xman in "Of Course's game" Yunho told to Junsu:"you know that I love very much to you guys?"

14. In November of 2004 when there were rumors that would replace Jaejoong with someone else. Yoochun crying in the presentation of "Miduhyo" when he realized this. Yoochun also cry when he the news.

15. Yunho's stomach was not right so Changmin used to always write a note saying "Do not forget to feed yourself in the job" and put it in the pants pocket. Junsu always said "Eat your food on time!"

16. When Yunho is asked who his favorite members he always says "I like all the members" but when forced to answer he always choose Jaejoong.

17. In a fanmeeting Yoochun said "Not only two years, but up to twenty, two hundred, two thousand years .... We will always be together. "

18. Yoochun in April 2004 he was hospitalized, he got angry because Junsu did not came to visit. But Junsu every night was praying that Yoochun recovery soon.

19. On July 7, 2005 in an interview in Beijing when the MC asked a question to Jaejoong, he carefully answered the question then turned to see Yunho with a side of "good-answered question?" Yunho smiled and nood his head in approval as saying "you answered well."

20. In a joke that they were doing to Junsu, Yunho and Jaejoong acted as if they have problems between them Junsu was so scared that almost cries.

21. When the 4 members did a joke to Yunho at the last part they turned to see the camera and said "we love you Yunho!"

22. Jaejoong said that when members do not find their own underwear they use to other members

23. When everyone was praising Jaejoong, Yunho said, "Although sometimes he is a bit rough, actually is the one that most resembles a mother. He is the most gentle member "Junsu said," He is the member who cares for others when they are sick. "Yoochun said," He is a trustworthy person who will always be by your side. He is a member of the members. "Changmin said," When you compare it to other people your age you can not imagine .... Once you see it gives the impression of light. "

24. In a fanmeeting Junsu said "The members are like my brothers. We are like a family! "

25. In 2006 on the birthday of Yunho and Changmin, Jaejoong especially wrote a letter for Yunho. Jaejoong, Yoochun and Junsu Jaejoong bought pizza and lit two candles to put them.

26. For the leader Yunho saw higher, Changmin is used to bend his knees slightly.

27. After Jaejoong's injury in a fanmeeting he said "I don't feel no pain. Please do not cry for me! In fact once I don't feel no pain! "

28. In an interview, Yunho said "No matter how many or how big the obstacles are, I hope that we can overcome together as 5 Whenever we are very happy together! "

29. 2005, Yoochun whose family lives in the United States said "My mother always worried that I live alone away from home, but since I have members and I never felt lonely."

30. When Yunho was asked where he got energy from, he said "The support of members!"

31. Yunho said that if he wasn't a member of the insurance TVXQ, he would be a Jaejoong's serious fan.

32. Yunho said that knowing the four members was the most important event of his life. And he said that whenever he sees the word "promise" the members agreed.

33. Yunho said "I hope members of TVXQ always continue. Now our friendship is already very strong. But I hope in the future is made even stronger! "Yoochun said," I hope that the friendship of the members will always there. "Junsu said" The health of the members is the most important thing! "

34. Everyday Yunho wakes up early and patiently waits to the other members.

35. Jaejoong said "I am the mom the other members are my children." Yunho corrected him and said, "We are the Dong Bang family. I am the father, Jaejoong the mother, Changmin is the youngest son, Junsu and Yoochun are the daughters. "In that Junsu interrupted and said," Yoochun is my wife! "

36. When Jaejoong was injured, Yunho always followed him everywhere and gently placed his hand on Jaejoong's shoulder to proctect him from falling.

37. In each award they have received they always thank you "to members"

Love won't run out

Let the flood of love wash over you and then drench everyone around you.

Secure

There’s a time you need protection like you can’t handle all your problems

And you can not breath your life

You need someone to be your guardian like an angel hold you tight

And I guess I can be the one you need

Reach for the stars so if you fall you land on a cloud

Climb up the hill though you can not fly away

Wish upon the wishing sky

And let your dream be told

Maybe someday you’ll get to hold on what you think is real

Everybody want to feel secure

Life is moving even if you fall

You Try to heal the heart with cure

Life is amazing just realize

11/3/7

p/s: i don't know if this song really for me..

he once said , tht it's for me..

cos..this is what i describe him..

the truth is..

this is not what the best i can describe u..

and when u tell me to describe u..

i think of one word..

safe,..and happy..

cos..u the first one ever approached me 1st.

u make me smile when i'm trying hard to not smile..

i don't want to misunderstood something.. that's why i'm pretend to be the hard type..

and kind of regretting it now..but learn something from it..

u make feel a new feeling i never felt before..

...maybe i just the person who fall easily...

and i don't want to accept the fact that i am..

so i just be hard with u,..

that is what really happen..

and the "reason"..

huh..why?

u describe me this way..

and it's confusing sometime..

but well that what you say..so be it..

and i once wish that u 'll stay be my best friend ..but it ended the wrong way..

so thanks for a lil time ..

HIHI...

You're my piece of mind, in this crazy world...

u're everything I've tried to find...

Your love is a pearl
You’re my Mona Lisa
You’re my rainbow skies
And my only prayer is that you realize
You’ll always be beautiful in my eyes

The world will turn
And the seasons will change
And all the lessons we will learn
Will be beautiful and strange
We’ll have our fell of tears
Our share of sight
My only prayer is that you realize
You’ll always be beautiful in my eyes

[Chorus]
You will always be beautiful in my eyes
And the passing years will show
That you will always grow
Ever more beautiful in my eyes

And there are lines upon my face
From a life time of smiles
When the time comes to embrace
For one long last wine
We can laugh about how time really flies
We won’t say goodbye
Cause true love never dies
You’ll always be beautiful in my eyes

God will give you everything you need once you are ready to receive

I thought i am ready for it ...

but maybe i'm not mature enough to be ready for it..

God is abundant and is only waiting for me to make myself ready to receive what i truly need. Think now what can you do to make yourself ready? ...

..................

.................

i have a bless morning..

actually not morning..

cos it's 2.43 pm already...

thanks 4 the smile...

what do you think of me in one word?

............

i wish for the sun to shine brighter,

and the stars to fall over my head...

but i realize that to accept the moon the way it is...

more difficult than what i wish for.....

when we hope for something perfect..

it will not happen the way we hope it..

we'll be sad over it...

so, don't put a hope on someone, who will not reply u back...

cos..in this small world..

there's someone who pray for u silently..

u just don't notice it yet...

...

“In the end, everything matters.”

soft answer turns away wrath

It's so easy to answer in kind, but instead feel into your heart and answer gently. Let peace radiate from you.

“Maybe there are no right moments, right guys, right answers, maybe sometimes you just have to say what’s in your heart.”

—	Sex and the city

watching The blind side again..

i love this movie very much..

i like Big mike so so much...

I've learn something again today,

not all people get what they wants in their life...

not all people having a perfect life..

not all people have their own bed..

not all people have their mom telling them bedtime stories before they sleep..

not all people have a family..

not all people will be kind hearted to help those who in needs,,

and today..

thanks god for everything..

thanks for giving me a family i can rely on..

friends that i can trust too,..

and thanks for this life...

"you've changed his life,

no, he's changed mine"

Michael Oher

Michael Jerome Oher (born Michael Jerome Williams, Jr.; May 28, 1986) is an American football offensive tackle for the Baltimore Ravens of the National Football League. He was drafted by the Ravens in the first round of the 2009 NFL Draft. He played college football at the University of Mississippi for the Ole Miss Rebels. His life through his first year of college is one of the subjects of Michael Lewis's 2006 book, The Blind Side: Evolution of a Game and the subject of the 2009 film The Blind Side.

Oher was born in Memphis, Tennessee, one of twelve children of Michael Jerome Williams and Denise Oher. His mother was addicted to crack cocaine since her pregnancy with him. As a result, he received little constructive attention during his formative years. He repeated both first and second grades, and attended eleven different schools during his first nine years as a student. He also alternated between time spent in various foster homes and periods of homelessness, before he was sixteen years old.^[1] Oher's estranged father, Michael Williams, a former cell mate of Denise Oher's brother, was murdered while Oher was a senior in high school.^[1]

After playing football during his freshman year at a public high school in Memphis, Oher applied for admission to the private Briarcrest Christian School, at the instigation of acquaintance Tony Henderson, with whom he was temporarily living. Henderson was sending his son to the school in order to fulfill the dying wish of the boy's grandmother, and thought Oher might also enroll. The school's football coach submitted Oher's school application to the headmaster, who agreed to accept him if Oher could complete a home study program first. Despite not finishing the program, he was admitted when the headmaster realized that his requirement had removed Oher from the public education system.^[1]

After the 2003 football season at Briarcrest, he was named Division II (2A) Lineman of the Year in 2003 and First Team Tennessee All-State.^[2]Scout.com rated Oher a five-star recruit and the #5 offensive lineman prospect in the country.^[3] During that season and for his prior twenty months at Briarcrest, Oher had been living with several foster families and a football teammate. In 2004, Leigh Anne and Sean Tuohy, a couple with a daughter and son at Briarcrest, allowed Oher to live with them and eventually adopted him. The family began taking care of his needs after becoming familiar with his difficult childhood. They also connected him with a tutor, who worked with him for twenty hours a week.^[1] Oher eventually brought his 0.6grade point average up to a 2.52 GPA by the end of his senior year so he could attend a Div. I school by enrolling in some 10-day-long Internet-based courses from BYU. Taking and passing the internet courses allowed him to replace Ds and Fs earned in earlier school classes, such as English, with As earned via the Internet.^[4] This finally raised his graduating GPA over the required limit.^[5]

After receiving scholarship offers from the University of Tennessee, Louisiana State University, the University of Alabama, Auburn University, and theUniversity of South Carolina, Oher ultimately decided to play for Coach Ed Orgeron at University of Mississippi ("Ole Miss"), alma mater of his guardians Leigh Anne Tuohy and Sean Tuohy.^[6] This decision sparked an investigation by the NCAA. The first issue was that Oher's grade point average (GPA) was still too low to meet the rules for a Division I scholarship at the time of the offer from Ole Miss. This was corrected by graduation, when Oher completed online classes through Brigham Young University.^[1]

The second issue was the Tuohys' pre-existing relationship with the school and the fact that Oher's high school coach, Hugh Freeze, took a job with Mississippi twenty days after Oher signed his letter of intent.^[1][7] Freeze asserted that his position with Mississippi was not an example of quid pro quo for encouraging Oher to attend Mississippi, but the result of a pre-existing relationship with Mississippi offensive coordinator Noel Mazzone.^[8] The NCAA did not close its case on their suspicions of collusion. However, they ruled that Ole Miss had committed no NCAA violations in its recruitment of Oher. Freeze was found guilty of secondary violations for contacting other Memphis-area recruits prior to joining the Ole Miss staff.^[7][1]

Oher started in ten games as a guard during his first season with Mississippi, becoming a first-team freshman All American. He shifted to the position of left tackle for the 2006 season, and was named in a variety of pre-season All-Conference and All-American teams.^[9][10] He was named a second-team Southeastern Conference (SEC) offensive lineman after his sophomore season and a first-team SEC offensive lineman after his junior season. Oher was also successful academically at Ole Miss, and his tested IQ score increased 20 to 30 points between when he was measured in the public school systems growing up and when he was measured in college.^[1]

On January 14, 2008, Oher declared that he would be entering the 2008 NFL Draft.^[11] However, two days later, he announced his withdrawal from the draft to return to Ole Miss for his senior season.^[12]After the 2008–2009 college football season, Oher was selected for the AP All-American first team,^[13] made the honor roll for the second time (the first time being his sophomore year),^[14][15] and graduated with a degree in criminal justice in the spring of 2009.^[16]

Chances - Five For Fightin

Chances are when said and done

Who will be the lucky ones
Who make it all the way?
Though you say I could be your answer
Nothing lasts forever
No matter how it feels today

Chances are we'll find a new equation
Chances run away from me
Chances are all they hope to be

Don't get me wrong I never say never
Cause though love can change the weather
No act of God can pull me away from you

I'm just a realistic man

A bottle filled with shells and sand
Afraid to look beyond what I can lose when it comes to you
And though I'll see us through yeah

Chances are we'll find two destinations
Chances run away from me
Still chances are more than expectations
And possibilities
Over me

Eight to five or two to one
Lay your money on the sun
Until you crash what have you done?
Is there a better bet than love?
What you are is what you bring
You've got to cry before you see

Chances, chances

Chances lost are hopes torn up pages
Maybe this time
Chances are we'll be the combination
Chances come and carry me
Chances are waiting to be taken
And I can see

Chances are the fascination
Chances won't escape from me
Chances are only what we make them
And all I need

Today

oneul-eun il-yoil iyo ...
saebyeog, ajig kkaeeo,edo ... jam-eul mos ja
hajiman jigeum-eun geu nolae .. deul-eo iss-eoyo
yemen alab gonghwagug-ui nolae ..
"naneun dangsingwa salang-e ppajyeoss-eoyo sonyeo"
"oneulnal, oneul"
pi / s isang : dangsinhalyeomyeon
nan jeongmal dangsin-eul geuliwo hae wassdeon,i il ..
eotteohge jinaesyeoss-eoyo?
hei, sasil-eun ..
nan geujeo dangsin-i geuliul, il-eo
neomu haengbog-i halu, sigan ttaemun-eyeyo ..
naega dangsin-eul ... ij-ji sijag
sigan gamsa, ...
hajiman nan jeongmal ttae haengbog haeyo dangsin-i saeng-gag ...
nan ...
geulaeseo nan salang-eul dangsin-i algo ..
simjieo geunyang hanjjog-ui salang-iya
haneunimkke gamsa haeyo ...
gamsahabnida ..
IALY

Low self-ESTEEM

It’s not as easy as waking up one morning and deciding

you’re going to pretend to be happy; or that today, you look somewhat decent; or wow,

you realise that falsifying confidence is something you can actually do; it’s not like that.

This is waking up every morning and realising that you can’t stand what you see,

how you feel, how you are on the inside; that you are, as grotesque on the outside as your are inside

;you are rotten. This is thinking you’re worthless, believing it, because it’s been said by everyone around you as much as it’s been said inside your head more than a million times.

This isn’t about someone telling you otherwise,

or fishing for compliments so that you feel better.

This isn’t about hope, or thinking that maybe one day, someone will love you, flaws and all;

no, this is having yourself internally wired to comprehend that maybe you are going to end up alone,

and accepting it, because no one will ever love you.

Because, at the end of the day, this isn’t about a significant other;

this is about yourself and how you can’t love yourself;

you loathe yourself, you’d take shards to your face and cut yourself open and rid yourself of the demons rippling beneath your skin.

This isn’t some fad - it’s not something you fake.

This is feeling insecure, even when you’re alone; feeling inadequate, even when there are no standards: this is a constant state of personal and impersonal dissatisfaction.

So don’t act like you know what this is like, or tell me that it’s easy, because you have no idea about it.