20 Jun 09
~Sat~
Today..
Go back to tht place..
it's been a long time..
1 or 2 years mayb..
OMG..
i just hate tht feeling being there..
i'm insane..
i'm totally not being the true me..but the other fake me..
trying hard to smile when i just hate to be there..
trying hard to listen to whatever they say..
pretend tht it's not me who they talking about..
pretend like i really love to be there..
pretend like i care..
y oh y!!!
i really wnt to correct all this feeling..
want to have the sincere smile..
want to really love being there..
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but the situation..
not support me to act so..
y oh y!!!
* u hav to say tht..
n why i hav to accept it..
dunno y it's alwys like tht..
n neverrrr change..
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things get worst..
when i start to tell my mom ..
my real feeling..
.......................
she just told me tht..
i'm not an open minded person..
n i should just accpt it..
why i hav to complain..
tht's the best for me..
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dis is not what i rlly wnt to hear..
y don't u listen to my word..
U aso blme me..
OMG..
I JUST HATE IT...
i know i act. like a kid..
i know maybe it's only my negative thinking..
but i really hate tht ..
U also never support me..
sorry..
i hate that..
(pls 4give me 4 hating u now..dis mmnt..)
GBU**
