Friday ~ Today & yesterday story..

Keep in mind that things happen for a reason..
and world is not fair as we imagined...
"we live alone, we die alone, everything else is just an illusion"
quoted by George Zinavoy - The Art Of Getting By..
It's not fair god, u know what i mean..
I don't want to be a bad person, but i am a very2 bad person now...
i've said things i don't want & don't mean too...
I hate the person i am now..
;(

The cuteness of Life

Ohayooooo, 

i'm back for more..

yeah!!!!...

been so silent these few months..

the pics above r the pics of my two lovely niece..

very cute right..

yay...!!! i wish to have baby cute like them..

(XD, just kidding)

before the new year begin, 

i had done a lists of "must thing to DO on 2012"

and yeahhh!!, 

i complete the first wish..

having new short hair and once again a bangs..

(ineverlearnfrmamistake)

yes i am..

doing the same style but a bit different this time..

at first, i reallly hate it..coz i look so so weird..

but as it get lonnggggerrr..

i happen to like it..

better than not having any hair..LOL xd..

Tadaaaaa, 

sound stupid, talking to myself..

haha..

XD

@$#%$%^$^%$%#%$%^&U&^**&*(*(*)(

this is what i feel at office today..

work is hard, 

and everyday i can't stop myself from complaining...

aiya

 jashikkkkk...

cham..

stop until here for now..

sleep time..ZZZZ...

heyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Talking to myself again...
sound so lonely ;(
finally, my job is done...
can relax a bit already tomolooooo.....
feeel so tired this days...
i still don't know abt many things..
and i kept learning day by day..
aiya....my money aso...gone..
buy this and that...
hope for a x'mas bonus..coz, i still haven't buy any present 4 my mom & dad..
aiya...why am i so so BOROSSSSSSSSS.....
my x'mas present...
i wish for a bestfriend...
nothing more...jUst that...
i know..x'mas is not about getting present...
it's about the birth of our creator..
and we celebrate it becoz of his kindness to us..
he dies for us...
:(...
So let's celebrate the big day, happily...

God, give me the key now...
i'm afraid to open it before..
but i'm ready now...
so God pls open it now...

p/s: i'm not arrogant, i'm just to shy to look at u eyes to eyes, face to face...
        i'm maybe stupid but i'm willing to learn..
       

i am so not happy tdy ! !

...............................................
 I keep remind to myself to "SMILE"
and for a few seconds, i will..then after that, i get this ugly faces.... ಠ_ಠ 


I feel so damn not happy today, i did laugh in a day, but i just feel like i'm missing something..
Homesick ~.~ , i miss my friends so so much, and i want to meet them..
i want to go back home...
;(
Everybody is busy with their own life, work and etc...
try to Pm them, but having just a short chat...
becoz i'm so evil..i feel so lonely..:(
So so tired tdy, work getting harder day by day...
I just missssssssssssssssssssss  my friends so so much...
;(
i envy all the pictures i take of myself..
coz i'm smiling prettily in it..
me now, just sigh, sigh, & sigh...
wish me inside aso happy as the pics i take..:)
Dear God...hear my prayer tdy, 
coz only talking to u make me calm and be normal again..
pls hear my prayer & and i so selfish, but pls grant my prayer..:)
gd nite..
Dear all my friends...
i do misssss u guys so so much...
:(

a little too much about myself :D NoV moments

♥ my life ♥

♥ my special dinner ♥

i'm lovin it..

eating it alone in my room..

so sad, kinda miss the sweet escape moment,..

i'm so full ady, 

will start dieting again tomorrow..

♥ Sweet escape ♥

wit Luffy, Jenn, Dadek and Wan

27th 11 2012

i'm having the best crazy day tht time..

i enjoy myself too much,

it's been a long time i didn't laugh crazily like tht..

and + my hearts also scared if we get caught ...

but we ended up good anyway..

lols..

Mcd + Hot cup..:)

♥ Greyson Chance Live at 1 Borneo ♥

17th Nov 2011

hihihi...

this is what i like the most.

got the VIP ticket to the concert..

special thanks to Ms.Chua & Jue..

becoz of them 

i be able to get the vip ticket..:)

and i enjoy yelling ..

Greyson looks better than Justin..

in my opinion lah..

and he had captured all the girls + boys at his concert..:)

lucky those who get the chance to meet him backstage..

i'm in love with his voice...

and i love the way he's playing the piano..

oh he's just so cute,...

♥ Melvin Farewell party ♥

we having a farewell party for melvin on 30th Nov 2011

he's going to work 4 another company ..

Going to be a big boss at such a young age..

envy him..(kidding XD)

and prumprumprammmmmm...

I'm been given the oppurtunity to take his work..

i start to learn all about his job this whole nov..

and i'm not quite expert enough but i know a lil bit for know..

his job quite hard..

very hard actually..

and it does make me dizzyyy...

aftr work..

ill take bath faster then go to sleep..

but i want to learn more..

and the fact is..

i'm in love with what i'm doing right now..

yeah, i miss a lot of what happen in my hometown but having this job make me more mature..

and the feeling of having yr own salary is superb goooodd..

:)

will work hard from now on..

i won't stop learning...

maybe i've made many mistake at first, 

but it's normal..

no one know what to do directly...

all people start to learn 1st..

unless, they r super extraordinary..XD

♥ Melvin and me ♥ 

      

♥ my colleagues ♥

up left: Ms.Chua, Fong, me, Aemmy, and Annie

down: Jue, Doreen (ex acc.clerk) , Melvin, Nicholas (our boss) and jihan

Lately i've been too happy living my life..
and i don't know why??
life seems to be so perfect this few days..
I've been having all things that i exactly want...
The ViP ticket to Greyson chance live in 1b,
just hoping get the standing ticket, but i get more than wht i want..
and
things just going on to what i've planned..
it's simply like that,
Untill i know abt the saddest news ever...
i start crying n crying non stop..
my first pet that i've been taking care of since jan 2011 is now gone..
I feel so guilty inside...
it's maybe happen becoz of my words..
and it is...
Mimi can't give birth,
and the kitten inside is dead..
so
mimi need to get surgery to take out all the dead kitten..
it's must be painful,
she can't bear it..
i've got a phone call today...
from my liltle sister,
she's crying...
and my mom says,
u cannot be like that..
it's just a cat...
and i feel so blank at a moment..
so i just randomly says that, she might be just sleeping..
but my mom says that..she is dead..
my mood is not good,
so i just gone to sleep..
i'm crying so bad tdy..
it's not just a cat..
she's something to me..
i love her so so much..
and i'm so sad now that she's gone..
i can't even watch her ...
I miss Mimi so bad...
 i don't know what else i've to say...
 because of the happy moment i have the few days..
i forget to care about the other important things in my life..
coz in my thought...
things might be end up in a good way..
and it's not...
she's part of the family now,
my dad who had this cold heart also love her..
tht's why,.....
 i love her so so much...
she change all the mood in my house..
my mom was against me at the first time, but she's the one who keep buying food to MIMI>.< (
An' must be so sad rite now, she's the one who taking care of mimi since i start working here
losing something that u care so much is really sad...
so sad ...

19.11.2011

i might crying all night thinking of her...
it's a sad day ever..
:((

Don't wake up alone on saturday morning..

Your life is changing in small, important ways every day. The structure is no longer holding, no longer able to stay glued together, so certain things are having to leave you when you’re asleep. They’re so quiet, so considerate when they abandon you, that I bet you don’t even notice.

They call this growing up, or something similar to it. You wake up on a Saturday morning and realize everything has become unrecognizable to you. When did this happen? Oh right, when you were sleeping. They came in at night and started to peel things away from you like an orange. They were careful not to cut the center, they were careful not to let any juice drip on the bedspread your mother bought for you. They wanted your life to look familiar to you, didn’t want to shock you completely, so they kept some things intact. Some things, not everything. Guess what’s gone? Wrong. Guess again.

You woke up on a Saturday and came to the sudden realization that you were all alone, that everything you had surrounded yourself with Monday through Friday, all the happy hours and all the business lunches and all those technological noises you drenched your earbuds in: it all added up to zero. You feel like a fool, don’t you? You played the game like everyone asked you to and still managed get to this place of complete and utter loneliness and alienation. Where did you go wrong? Do you need to send another text message to someone? Do you need to pay another credit card off or have another Great Night Out? What can you do to feel more connected to the things around you?

How did this all happen when you were sleeping? How did you manage to sleep through everyone else getting married and having kids and starting meaningful careers? You were asleep and now you’re awake but it’s too late. Everyone else has figured out their life and now you’re just alone on a Saturday morning and that’s it. This is it. Never fall asleep again.